Member Since: May 19, 2008
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Last Update: May 19, 2008
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I am dealing with a huge weigh on my shoulders. Last year I went through the hardest time of my life. I had been with my ex-boyfriend on and off for almost a year and a half. He moved away for school but we hook up when he would come home. I ended up pregnant and he made me feel like there was no way to keep the baby. I was in a horrible state with my hormones running wild and all the added stress of school. I was 2 months away from receiving degree. But I knew it was going against everything I believe in.
I feel totally depressed. Its been a year and I still have the pregnancy weight, I feel totally guilty for what I did. It kills me inside to think about what I did. I have no one to talk to because its such a sensitive issue. My friends haven't been through this and I dont want to dwell my issues on them. I lost all my confidence i feel fat and ugly because of what I did. I dont know what to do anymore. I feel totally alone :*( (link)
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I somewhat can relate to how you feel. I have had female issues since I was 16. I had to go through series of shots, and treatments in order to get pregnant. After we got pregnant there were problems with the baby. I saw 2 different doctors and after seeing the ultrasounds they both had said that I should terminate the pregnancy. One said that it was better to terminate it now then to wait for it to terminate on its own. It was very hard for me. When my husband and I went in they had told him that I was already dilating. They wouldn't put me under, I had to be awake for the whole thing.
To this day I think about it and cry. However 6 months later we became pregnant again. With a few minor complications we had a pretty much healthy baby girl. I thank God for giving my baby back.
Some day God will give you your child back.
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