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I am an 18 year old male and I have been a pretty emotionally dead person for...well since my early childhood. And when I say dead I don't mean depressed or really down or anything of that nature. It's nearly impossible for me to feel anything genuine and I can only put a mask of fakeness on so I don't seem so far out. When I was in a psychology class I read about something called anti-social personality disorder and it almost disturbed me how similar the symptoms were to my own character. I've done enough to put myself away for the better half of my life and I haven't felt a shred of remorse or conscience. Anyways, I'm wondering if my lack of emotion is a cause of concern. Nothing brings me joy, pain, or sorrow and I can't even feel love for my own family anymore. NOTHING will make me feel anything and it bothers me. All I feel like is a body and a brain without a soul. Something is wrong with me but I don't know what. I'm a very intelligent person and all it seems I can do is succeed with material things like work while my relationships are built on false pretenses and emotions I never even felt but acted like I did. My question is: If there is anybody somewhat educated about this...what could be wrong with me? Do I have anti-social personality disorder?...and am I stuck with this? (link)
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This certainly is an interesting discussion. I never thought I would find other individuals with the same "affliction". I have known about my apathetic personality since I was eight but i suppose I just thought I was insane. I remember having teachers/friends/family members constantly questioning my emotional state; stating that my face always appeared to be angry. In reality I was simply sitting there, ambivolent to my surroundings. I developed a loose reputation for being the "angry kid". From that time forward I have observed and studied all social situations in an attempt to be able to convey a "normal" appearance and now can read and react perfectly at any time I may need to. I understand what you are talking about and am interested in knowing more about your situations. For now I am wondering if anyone knows what we have is called?
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