Member Since: March 25, 2012
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Last Update: March 25, 2012
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Im 16 years old in 10th grade and it seems my weekday routine is Step #1:Wake up. Step #2:Do not kill self. Step #3:Sleep. Step #4: Repeat. I have 1 or 2 "friends" at school that aren't really close they are just "friendly" to me. I have some close friends that I hangout with every weekend but during the week its so hard for me to get out of bed and go to school so i am low on attendency. I don't necessarily get bullied but I do see people pointing and staring and talking about me a lot which really makes me REALLY upset. I guess I am very sensitive. I usually come home for lunch and cry then go back to school and ill often cry at night. My parents and friends are aware of this and I go to a counselor but it doesn't seem to help at all its been getting worse and worse. I think im so ugly and I know i have a good life im not poor and i have family that loves me but I'm just so sad and I want to die. I don't want to commit suicide but I've definitely thought about it before. If I don't have something to look forward to at all times I get really depressed I usually look forward to the weekend and hanging out with my friends but now its just to hard to make it through school the whole week because it seems like I just get judged. My grades are getting low even though it seems like I try so hard I can't get them up. I try to do little things to motivate me to get myself out of bed like doing my hair a new way and things like that and it worked for a while but not anymore. I like to sleep a lot because cant feel sadness when I'm sleeping. I've never done any drugs. I'm not good at anything (seriously)I hide my face with my hair and I am emo I cut myself sometimes. I'm just tired of living....I just want to love myself but no matter what I do I just cant. (link)
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Sweetheart you are totally normal but r unaware that everyone feels the same at that age. Some r better at hideing than others. B brave and bold x
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