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when i was 9 or 10 my brother molested me. the molestation went so far i would even call it rape. while it was going on i told him no i didnt want to but he made me think i was wrong for not wanting to. afterwards he tried to have these sex talks with me about how to do sexual acts and what happens when guys get excited, i finally told him i didn;t want to talk about this with him. it took alot of courage but i hated it, i hated him. he told me if i told anybody he would tell them that i touched him, and that nobody would believe me. i felt disgusting, and i thought [still think] people will think i am disgusting for letting that happen to me.
now im 15 and it still horrifies me. i have never told anybody because im afraid they will think i am gross. i can never tell my parents, NEVER, because they will not believe me. He hides it so well and soemtiems i even wonder if he remembers doing it. once i braught it up, he acted like he didnt know what i was talking about and i sut up quickly, i didnt want to talk about it. I know it happened... but there is nothing i can do
now it is a huge problem b/c i have been dating this great guy for 3 months and i won't let him touch me. at first i just told him i was prude but when he puts his arms around me i freak, and once i decided to just ignore it and make out with him as uncomfortable as i was, he hand started to go up my shirt and i ran out of the room and started to cry hysterically. this shouldnt still be happening, but it is affecting me now more than ever.
i need this to go away
please help me forget about this and overcome my fear of somebody touching me. my bf is going to dump me if i keep doing this, he doesnt know why, im never going to tell him.
please help im desperate (link)
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Hi, Im not going to start by telling you I understand what you're going through. But I did have my own experiences with being molested when i was 8. I know its hard. Hard really isn't the word. Because the pain is through and through and you cant seem to get rid of it.
The best thing I have ever did was tell someone. On your own time go to a professional and tell them what happened to you. Im not saying go tell your parents and friends, but a psychologist knows how to deal with this pain.
The reason why you being molested when you were young is affecting you more now than ever, is because you know how criminally wrong it is. And the older you get the more you'll think about it. the more it will hurt you, until you tell someone.
As a person who has been molested. i URGE you to tell someone, and if you cant find anyone to trust, i can arrange something for you with someone trusted. and talk through email.
Anyway. I hope this help at all.
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