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How many regret breaking up with there first love?
we break up with our first loves (didnt fall out of love) because we want to go out and have fun and party with their friends and think maybe after a few years they will just find another person. How many people end up doing this and regret loosing their first love? Just out of curiosity, and how long did it ever take you to realize it was a mistake? tell me your stories, i really would like to hear them if you dont mind :) (link)
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i cant say i have fully "lost my first love" but im experiencing my first love right now.
me and him have broken up 4 times.... except we always seemed to come back to each other cause we cant fall out of love. im currently in a relationship with him. and i will do anything for him. i understand though because i am COMPLETELY and utterly scared of loosing him. i feel like if i do i will feel alone and die. thats how much i care and love him. i feel like there is no one else out there for me.
Also he was my first. first boyfriend. first kiss. first anything sexual. and we both lost our virginity to each other. (during the time i have kissed other people during the month period that we broke up one time) but it was just NOT THE SAME..... never felt right. actually made me feel gross. and just made me want HIM more. same happend with him... and then we ended up back together. BUT he is moving :( i can drive in 2months or so..... but im scared until then we will grow apart or something will happen and im just really scared of loosing him. he is my first love and i am experiencing it. and it takes over your life completely. HE controls my emotions. if me and him are good. im in a good mood. if me and him are fighting i feel dead and become anti social. i havent realized it was a mistake. i dont think it is since it is both our first love and first alot of things with each other. and i can just say i cant picture myself with anyone else.
the odds are we either stay on and off or together and end up marrying each other.
or something happens and we will loose each other ... but i am so afraid of that cause i cant picture my life without him or anyone else.
sometimes i wonder though by his words and actions if he loves me as much as i love him............... thats the only wondering i regret. (putting my hear out if he isnt loving me as much as i am)
actual i know for a fact that i show my love in a different way than he does and i am more emotional and like to talk and am very open with my feelings. yet when he hurts me i close up and makeit hard to let people in.
think im crazy or not but im feeling all this at age 16. im a 16 year old girl and please dont say im to young or dont know what love is cause i do..... i know this is love. but im just not sure wether or not i will be okay throughout this whole thing.
i reallly needed to vent and finally say this out loud.
so that is my story and this was the perfect opportunity. question to get this out on :)
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