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I DONT UNDERSTAND..!
Im 15, female and a virgin
My last bf dumped me party because i told him that he cant just expect sex from a virgin after a month of seeing each other..
so he saw he wasnt going to get any anytime soon
cept i was thinking about it..like If he had waited i would have, even if it was just a week
And now i fel like Im ready for sex, infact almost desperate for it [?!]
BUT.. I cant think of anyone that I would rather start with than him.. I think about it everynight like 'Oh i could be with him right now' but I think i know that I dont proper LOVE him
And well we were at a beach party together the other week, and after about 5 weeks of not speaking a word to him we were sitting together like old times, BUT i had to go to my friends birthday party at 10pm , soon after i was sat with him, and well i was a bit drunk but he hadnt touched a drop, but we kissed.. I was soo happy i was lik flying, because i never thought it would happen again.
Anyway, the point is that If Id have stayed at the beach party i would probably, definately not be a virgin in the morning, which Im still trying to decide is a good thing or not, because most of my friends are saying that it was just a one-off, and it would have been a one-night stand..which could be true, and also a bit crap for my first time having sex..
But a tiny part of me is saying that we would have made up and would be going out again, and sex was just the fun part of it..
And now i look at every boy as a potential to lose my V with..
I dont understand..why do i feel like this? and him ? and why do i want sex ?
thankyou xx (link)
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i too think that you shouldn't do it..ur first time should b special..not with a guy who apparently just wants to do it and doesn't really care about you're feelings,dont worry,you will find the right partner ,sum one who you will be sure that he's worth wt you're giving up for him.
what i mean is.. that the physiscal part of a relationship is important,but it shouldn't be the only reason he's with you,so i say you should wait til you find someone who appreciates you more than that
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