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F/16
I've always been a kind of careless person, kind of selfish, and always angry inside. I really don't know why and recently, I've hit a change and I know for a fact that I've matured, somewhat, anyway. However, I'm still extremely careless. In fact, I care less than I used to. I don't care if I don't graduate, I don't care if people hate me, I don't care if I'm in danger, I don't care about the people around me. I don't even care if I die, but don't get me wrong, I don't WANT to die. Is this normal for someone my age or is there something wrong with me personally? Not much as happened since I matured, I just lost all my friends, but they really weren't my friends now that I think about it. Mostly peer pressure went on with them, so I just drifted away and now I find myself on the computer most of the time. If I find myself in a social situation, I don't chatter anymore and now I just sit there quietly, definitely listening, but not knowing what to say. I feel like everyone around me is a stranger. I don't really care that I'm lonely either, in fact, it feels kind of nice because I feel like there are no problems around me, but then when I'm at school or at the mall, I suddenly feel uncomfortable and kind of sick. And I get so nervous, that my tourettes go from mild to annoyingly serious. The only people I have real contact with is my boyfriend, who's younger than me, and very good friend of mine that I managed to keep, but she lives at least two hours a day and I don't wanna ruin her social life by randomly driving up there to say hi. Not to mention, I think her mom is annoyed that I'm not all that social since she seems to make faces whenever I say something quietly. I don't know if this normal or not, basically, is what I'm asking and if there's maybe something I can do to change this? Or should I just let it be? (link)
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Im a 16/F to except I never gad any friends and noone ever listings to me even if i shout which i do quit often homeschooled from 12 and a half go red if any one look at me and noone talks to me like im invisable i tried to kill my self once but no one know i just woke up and had a really sore head after takin those pills so i say just be noticed wear a lot of make up and stand out it gets you noticed shout when your speakin put just remember still be you at the same time it works a sharm
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