Member Since: April 21, 2012
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Last Update: April 21, 2012
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i had an abortion about 8 months ago an i wish i hadn't. i cry all the time because i want my baby but its too late. i have been thinking about killing myself so i can be with my baby but i dont know if i should. i just feel like a monster for doing it but im only 17 and my mom kinda forced me to get the abortion. i just want my baby back i cant keep feeling depressed all the time. (link)
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Everyone else hasn't been where you have been, but I have. I got pregnant. I knew the instant I was pregnant, I got a test at 5 weeks. I called my boyfriend at the time the same week and he didn't say we could keep it. He assumed I would make the "smart" decision, I had school, a job, a career ahead of me. BUT I WANTED MY BABY. I WANTED HIM TO SAY TO ME THAT I SHOULD KEEP IT. I blamed him for a year -- WHY didn't he make me stop. WHY did I do it. Why did I kill my baby. In less than a week I KNEW she knew me, she understood my pain, she listened to me.
THE IMPORTANT THING IS -- you can't hurt yourself. SHE / HE would never want that. THEY STILL WANT THEIR PARENT. you WILL be that parent someday. A BETTER day when you can GIVE THEM everything they deserve. Sometimes good people are put in bad situations, tough situations, where the only way out seems to cut yourself down, but at the end of the day YOU HAVE TO KNOW that their spirit guided you. That you will give them life one day. Just not today.
WHO ever the father is, you have to put them behind you. you have to pray. you have to know, that your baby will come back -- pray every day, light a candle. Wish her spirit well and know that at the right time, the next time GOD GIVES YOU HER/HIM, you will be ready and able to GIVE them what they DESERVE.
All of that goes away if you do anything to yourself. you have made a pact w/ god. complete it by sending prayers and knowing that one day you will deliver your baby.
Many many hugs and emotions that no one can ever know if they havent made this choice.
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