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I am an 18 year old male and I have been a pretty emotionally dead person for...well since my early childhood. And when I say dead I don't mean depressed or really down or anything of that nature. It's nearly impossible for me to feel anything genuine and I can only put a mask of fakeness on so I don't seem so far out. When I was in a psychology class I read about something called anti-social personality disorder and it almost disturbed me how similar the symptoms were to my own character. I've done enough to put myself away for the better half of my life and I haven't felt a shred of remorse or conscience. Anyways, I'm wondering if my lack of emotion is a cause of concern. Nothing brings me joy, pain, or sorrow and I can't even feel love for my own family anymore. NOTHING will make me feel anything and it bothers me. All I feel like is a body and a brain without a soul. Something is wrong with me but I don't know what. I'm a very intelligent person and all it seems I can do is succeed with material things like work while my relationships are built on false pretenses and emotions I never even felt but acted like I did. My question is: If there is anybody somewhat educated about this...what could be wrong with me? Do I have anti-social personality disorder?...and am I stuck with this? (link)
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I am a 20 year old male and i have had the same issues for at least 6 years or so. I find that i am always wearing a mask and i have told my best friend about this and he thinks this is a "gift" because i can be who i want, when i want. I can make people believe that i really care about them, he even said that im like a "chameleon" because i blend in with whatever surrounding im in. To other people it seems that i always know exactly what to say and thats because every word that comes out of my mouth is chosen very carefully. I have people wishing they were me when im not really anything that i appear to be. I have different personality's depending on who im with, i can make a girl fall in love with me then i can break her heart without a drop of remorse. I feel like people are extremely predictable, i have the scenario played out in my head before i speak my first word.
I do get spurts of a real emotion and it is a extreme but brief feeling and then it goes away and i wish i could have those feelings more often.
The fear i have with this is that i will forever be alone, i will never be able to get a real attachment to somebody.
I geuss all i can do is what i do best and that is to put on this smile and be whatever people want me to be.
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