i was whole life desperate to find the meaning of life am atheist age 18 have horrible parents lived most of the life in depression am intellectual and read like hundred of books just this year i recovered from depression for first time this when my parents started to get together(they just talk a little by now)after they got together i become like king of the world made so much friends of both genders defined my purpose of life but it was just for awhile now i went through most horrible forum of depression and become completely emotionless just yesterday got my emotions back( toughest fight ever like finding thing that didn't exist) and the same night my parents again had fight , so well living in hell but i can bare it i only need some emotions i cannot feel pain or joy i know i have emotions now but still don't feel complete even my older state of super sad was better and moreover my fiinal exams are going which is gonna decide which university i get well this is my life all i have is hope that kept me alive
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Hello, I'm M/16. I've had some bad personal problems for the past two years. And finally, they are going away. For the past few weeks I've been feeling better than before, A LOT better. But now it's starting to seem like nothing has changed. I haven't really had a girlfriend, ever. There was this one girl I was liking a lot for about two years, I couldn't stop thinking about her. But she does not like me, I finally stopped caring and now, once my problems disappear, I start liking a new girl. And basically there is no hope whatsoever. She has a boyfriend and I can tell she does not like me by the things she says. This is about the 5th or 6th gal I've failed with. I don't get it. People tell me to wait after college or something. Hell no. My problems are said to have an effect on how I communicate with others in general, but I've eliminated my habit and addiction. I just want to blame everyone else, then I get mad at myself for it. Then I start thinking about the ego and my history, I start to feel crazy and whatnot, it's very confusing. It's like nobody really knows who I am. (link)
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i also caught in this thoughts that life is meaning less and i convinced myself to the very end i felt empty and life meaningless that even if i earn billion dollar or anything else everything is meaningless but the root cause of it was low self-esteem which give this feeling self-esteem is unlimited self worth unlimited-self love and growth people with low self esteem lack these three things they can't even think of growth,was my answer was meaningfull?
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I am an 18 year old male and I have been a pretty emotionally dead person for...well since my early childhood. And when I say dead I don't mean depressed or really down or anything of that nature. It's nearly impossible for me to feel anything genuine and I can only put a mask of fakeness on so I don't seem so far out. When I was in a psychology class I read about something called anti-social personality disorder and it almost disturbed me how similar the symptoms were to my own character. I've done enough to put myself away for the better half of my life and I haven't felt a shred of remorse or conscience. Anyways, I'm wondering if my lack of emotion is a cause of concern. Nothing brings me joy, pain, or sorrow and I can't even feel love for my own family anymore. NOTHING will make me feel anything and it bothers me. All I feel like is a body and a brain without a soul. Something is wrong with me but I don't know what. I'm a very intelligent person and all it seems I can do is succeed with material things like work while my relationships are built on false pretenses and emotions I never even felt but acted like I did. My question is: If there is anybody somewhat educated about this...what could be wrong with me? Do I have anti-social personality disorder?...and am I stuck with this? (link)
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It happened to me and i healed and now i want so desperately for you allguys to get your emotions back ,first of all waht happened to you? you had such a negative view of world like limitless hoplessness about meaning of life or a continuous negative thought about every thought or any other negative feed back of thoughts that just couldn't let you live with emotions so you had an nervous break down in other words your fuse blowed off okay there are 2 steps first of all since i my short term memory worsened i used brainwave( quantum brain power neaural synergy) as it claim to remove attention deficiency defect so it like started working on area of my brain which was dead and don't worry our brain has super ability to develop at any age even if you are 70-80 years old now second step( am still at it just yesterday got emotions back)neural synergy will slowly slowly bring you back so now don't think of past a bit! and give up your negative feed back habit in my case it was feeling of passing time negative disturbing voices whenever i tried to concentrate , i just now say i believe myself and now this is important even when if you think like you just got few emotions back you think you are not normal but you are wrong! just remember believe that you are normal don't compare yourself with others, neural synergy will bring your emotions back but it will be your tough fight to keep it and more thing now i feel so bad that i was living emotionless i don't even remmber from when i started faking emotions but now am like newborn baby and please add me on facebook http://www.facebook.com/kenster3000 , kencool3000@gmail.com okay am editing it still better use brainEVO system it works much faster and better you can find it free in torrents .FLAC version torrents works
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