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I am an 18 year old male and I have been a pretty emotionally dead person for...well since my early childhood. And when I say dead I don't mean depressed or really down or anything of that nature. It's nearly impossible for me to feel anything genuine and I can only put a mask of fakeness on so I don't seem so far out. When I was in a psychology class I read about something called anti-social personality disorder and it almost disturbed me how similar the symptoms were to my own character. I've done enough to put myself away for the better half of my life and I haven't felt a shred of remorse or conscience. Anyways, I'm wondering if my lack of emotion is a cause of concern. Nothing brings me joy, pain, or sorrow and I can't even feel love for my own family anymore. NOTHING will make me feel anything and it bothers me. All I feel like is a body and a brain without a soul. Something is wrong with me but I don't know what. I'm a very intelligent person and all it seems I can do is succeed with material things like work while my relationships are built on false pretenses and emotions I never even felt but acted like I did. My question is: If there is anybody somewhat educated about this...what could be wrong with me? Do I have anti-social personality disorder?...and am I stuck with this? (link)
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Hi Majj just read your post and it sounds extremely like myself. I am a 19 yr old male and have no emotions watsoever, I've been like this for as long as I can remember my soul feels like its been sucked out of me and I can't seem to find no way back to my oringal self. I have cut off contact from friends and family and take no interest in their well being. I dont go out much anymore because I can't chill out I'm constantly paranoid for no reason, people think I'm weird because I don't socialise as much as I should because I purely don't take no interest in what they are saying because I believe it's just a load of shit anyway. I have become accustomed and enjoy my own company I know this sounds fucked up but it's hard to explain . My girlfriend dumped me couple of months ago over this and I didn't even care I just looked her straight in her eyes and told her to fuck off she said im too cold for her and she needs someone loving. I really want to do something about this but this hold on me is fucking up my life I don't go to work anymore i rarely speak to no one all my happy memories have been erased , to be honest I feel as if I'm dead already and am just waiting for the event of death to take its toll
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