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Lately, Ive realy wanted ot become balimic or anterexic.. the thing is i cant. i love my boyfriend to death and he would flip if he found out.. also i would loose all trust in my parents.... soo what do i do?? is cutting back food a badd thing???
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First I just have to correct your spelling - ALL of you. ANOREXIA is the disease within which the anorectic person starves themselves. BULIMIA is the disease within which the patient overindulges in thousands of calories worth of foods and induces vomiting or gets rid of calories through exercise, laxatives, diuretics, and a number of other things that are extremely damaging to your body.
Please do not do that to yourself. You may have read all of those posts and said "well, that won't happen to me" but it really can happen to you. I watched a lifetime movie about it when I was in middle school and started cutting my food intake in half thinking "i won't go as far as those girls did" and now ten years later I'm seeing a nutritionist and a counselor and my parents are in denial and I have no friends because I spent my every spare moment thinking about food, my next binge, my next chance to workout, ect. You may think "i can control it" but it really gets to the point where the disease is controlling you. That's right, these are diseases, not diets and they are deadly. I'm twenty two years old and have to have an ultra-sound of my heart because I have abnormalities in my EKG's. I have no energy, persistant headaches, and I'm suicidal because I don't want to be bulimic but I'm so afraid to let go of the eating disorder because it's the only way of life I've known for the last eleven years. Let me also tell you that even if you think "i'm fat, i need to loose weight" the illogical thoughts that tell you to starve yourself are there because there are other problems going on that your body doesn't know how to deal with. Don't be afraid to ask someone for help. Whether you go to church or not, the nearest church would be glad to help you find someone to talk to who understands. One more thing - those comments everyone said about your boyfriend and parents aren't true. Being in recovery I know a lot of girls in my position - none of the parents are angry. Mine are in denial but not because they're angry, because they don't know what to do or how to fix me. They're so scared, they don't want to believe that I have this problem. Your parents love you (whether you see that or not - when I was eleven I was so sure my parents didn't love me. Now I see they just had issues of their own, but they have always loved me.) Your boyfriend may not know how to handle it but if he really loves you he won't flip out. It's hard to really love someone at a young age - I don't know how old you are - but don't worry about your boyfriend. He probably won't be the guy you mary anyway, especially if he flips out when he finds out you have a problem. Trust me - I've been there. Right now what you need to do is take care of you.
It's good to eat either two of the following things for breakfast
Whole grain carbohydrate
Protein (or dairy)
Fruit
For example - a bowl of whole grain cereal (like cherios) with half a cup of milk or eight ounces of apple juice and a whole grain bagel. FYI whole grain bagels are SO good just plain.
If you're hungry between breakfast and lunch then eat but it's good to have something healthy, low cal, and crunchy in the morning like carrots, an apple, or celery even. Crunchy, healthy, low cal snacks actually give you more energy and it's good to eat when you are hungry because this boosts your metabolism. Think about it - each time you eat your body starts digesting immediately and the healthier the food (with more nutrients) the harder it is for your body to digest which means the more calories you're burning by digesting it. So your body is working hard and thus you begin to wake up.
Have a GOOD lunch. A sandwich with meat (and cheese if you'd like) - read the package of meat to see how much is considered a healthy serving. Stay away from bologna and fake meats. Turkey, Chicken, and Ham are so good for you. Eat whole grain bread (white or wheat, whatever you prefer), and use whatever condiments your body is craving. Satisfying cravings make you less likely to binge on fatty foods later. I stay away from mayo because I just don't like it but if you do go for "light" mayo not fat free. Fat free items tend to have more carbohydrates in them than "light" items. Mustard is SO good because it's tasty and it will make you thirsty. Drink water, water, powerade, gatorade, water, propel, ect. These things keep you hydrated and help flatten your tummy. Stay away from sodas - they dehydrate you and that's why your tummy looks pudgy and you feel bloated (if your tummy looks pudgy which I'm betting that it doesn't). Along with your sandwich have some fruit - apple sauce, peaches or something sweet, and if you're still hungry try a small salad or even a few gram crackers. Everyone says watch your carbs but the food pyramid tells us we're allowed 6-11 servings a day.
Dinner - meat, potatoes, vegetables and water. Potatoes are so good for you - packed full of potassium and other vital nutrients. You can eat one everyday and even though they seem so fatty they're not. I promise.
Let me tell you what my nutritionist told me about a month ago. I wasn't letting myself eat anything and she was trying to convince me to eat because had I not eaten I would've found myself in the hospital AGAIN. When you start restricting your food intake your body gets scared. It doesn't know when it's going to get a good amount of food next so it holds on to everything you give it and for bulimics like me, the minute you take in anything it grabs hold of it and those calories are consumed almost instantly (so even if you throw up you're keeping at least a third of what you eat if not twice that) which is why so many bulimics look like normal healthy functioning people. On top of that if you're starving yourself and working out, you're really not burning any calories because your body slows your metabolism down so much. Our bodies are so intelligent and when we try to starve ourselves it kicks into survival mode and does everything it can to keep us alive. Some of those medical problems that were listed are not entirely accurate but the accurate ones are equally terrifying. Strokes, heart attacks, esophagus eruptions, tearing of the stomach linings, erosion of the teeth, seizures, and osteoporosis are all things anorectics and bulimics are prone to. My friend has lost all of her teeth and has severe digestion problems. My teeth have eroded quite a bit, I'm seeing a cardiologist and I have some digestion problems as well. Life may have sucked before I did this to myself but it really sucks now. Take my advice, don't start starving yourself and if you already have get some help. Check out the book "Life Without Ed" by Jenni Schafier.
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