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I feel stupid. All the time. Embarrassed, unworthy. You name it. I have such low self esteem. And all my friends are just so perfect. They have perfect hair, perfect bodies, perfect social life, perfect boyfriends. In fact, I don't even know why they are friends with me at all. And I'm not jealous of them. That's so not a part of any of this. This has to do with me. I'm just saying that being surrounded by them just seems to make my life seem even worse.
I can't seem to do anything right. I mess up every friendship I have. My parents told me it's because I always drop everything if there's a friend in need. I support my friends to the extreme. They always take priority. This is because I don't want them to think I'm not a very good friend because I don't want them dumping me again and again and again. But, they never reciprocate the level of support that I give them. I just, can't seem to...do anything. I'm so stupid for even having friends. So so stupid. I shouldn't have any, because I'm selfish for expecting them to show their support for anything that I do. I feel as though I don't deserve their support, but I have to keep giving mine to them because I feel like they deserve it. I don't deserve it. I don't know why I would. They've made it pretty clear that I don't deserve anything from them.
Sorry if this is confusing. It's late, and I'm tired. But this all made sense in my head. It's just harder to get it out on paper...well, computer screen. Whatever. (link)
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I completely understand what you mean to say so you don't have to worry about it making sense. First of all, your "friends" with perfect hair, perfect bodies, and perfect boyfriends are living the life of some plastic dolls where there is no such word as real. One thing you have to realize is that nothing in our world is perfect. Everything has room for improvements. And you should be proud of yourself. You aren't living in some crazy perfect world. You are living the life of you which is definetely imperfect. Would your life be good if it was perfect? Wouldn't it be boring to have a perfect boyfriend? A perfect boyfriend would never fight with you and then apologize. Do you really want to miss out on the chance of making up? Listen, this might not help you right now but later on, you will glad that you aren't perfect. YOur friends probably starve themselves to have "perfect" bodies. YOu should be proud that you have a healthy bood image instead of "perfect." Also dump those so called friends of yours. A friend is someone who is there for you in need. Someone who tells you from right to wrong. Someone who always have your back. If those perfect people can't do that then you don't deserve them. You deserve someone much better. Someone more REAL. Remeber never put yourself down. If you find good things about yourself then the world will too.
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