Heey, my names Amber, Im 18 years old. I really love helping people, I want to be a therapist when I grow up. I have suffered from depression twice in my life and have pretty much been through it all. I like to think Im good at giving advice, especially when it relates with Mental Health or Relationships. Im such a people pleaser so Ill always be there when you need me. I think thats pretty much it, but yeah, I hope to be answering lots of questions and helping everyone along the way. So yeah, thats all, thank you!
Gender: Female
Location: New Hampshire
Age: 18
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so this year it was my second year at a sleepaway camp. i loved this camp last summer, i had the best time of my life and i loved all of the people and made so many friends. this year a little bunk mixup happened and everyone blamed me for it because i requested two people that didnt request me. it didnt end well. before camp started, the bunks were back to normal and everything was good. on the first day i decided to swicth back into my old bunk, the one i was in last year. even though i was friends with the bunk i wanted to be in this summer. but they were ignoring me so i felt left out and switched to the bunk i was in last year. anyways, the whole summer i had a horrible time and cried every single day. no joke. so after a while i was fed up and was allowed to leave camp and come home. this happened a few days ago, august 8th actually. so now ive been home 3 days in a row because my friends are all busy. or at least they say they are. it really upsets me. i feel like my friends dont really like me anymore and i dont know why. this is the same feeling i had at camp. its not that people were mean to me at camp, i was just left out of everything. and it really hurt me because i thought these people were my friends. and i didnt know why they were doing it. i got home and texted all my friends to see if they could do anything and all of the replies said im sorry i cant :[ but i keep asking different people for different days and there ALL busy. i feel like the biggest loser ever. every year i go to long beach island near the end of august, and i NEVER ever have anyone to go with. no one. i always ask all my friends and they are always doing things. it really makes me sad. and i just feel like i dont have any friends anymore. i do have two best friends from my old school, but they are always busy. btw i forgot to mention i switched from private school into public school last year going into freshman year. it ws really hard for me because i can be really quiet at first. i had some in school friends but not that many outside friends. i lost two close friends i met last year. it was a hard year. this year im going into school feeling like i have no friends and im just so nervous. i dont know what to do anymore. its also embaressing becuase my sister who is going to be a senior has so many friends and shes always busy and so far ive done nothing ever since ive been home. i just wish i belonged somewhere. into a certain group or something. last year i had scattered friends, i was never in a group or anything. ive been having weird thoughts ever since the middle of camp, when i was having a really bad time. even now when i get upset i have these thoughts about like cutting myself or sometimes i think what it would be like if i killed myself. i dont think i ever will but sometimes i think about it. its really starting to worry me i dont know what to do anymore. and i cant tell anyone these things. help me (link)
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Oh sweetie, cutting or suicide is not the answer. Trust me. I was depressed throughout this year, and one night my mom and I had a huge fight, and I just felt so....sick of it all, that when I was in the bath, all I could think about was negative thoughts, like how much I hated myself, and I ended up cutting myself. Well, I got addicted to it, and it was bad, because I did try killing myself. It didnt work, obviously, cause Im still here, but I did have to go to therapy, and thats when they diagnosed me with depression. I dont think you have that but it does kind of sound like your in a slump or something. Im kind of in the same boat, as far as not having any friends to hang out with. Dont get me wrong, I have plenty of good friends and stuff, but they are also busy with work or family stuff, and yes, it stinks, but you just have to remind yourself that they dont hate you, there not mad at you, there just soo busy. Maybe you could try doing something yourself. Like play a sport or something....good luck sweetie, you'll be fine!!
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