Well My name is Jessica. Im 14 years old and someday I'd hope to become a Phsycologist(sp?) or someone who gives advice.
I guess it's because I've gone through some of the problems on here including eating disorders, depression, or verbal and phsycal abuse etc. Since I can connect with what they're going through I'm guessing I can help or something.
Like a normal fourteen year old I like to be active, listen to music,hang out with friends, help them out and i also enjoy writing.
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im 15/f and i've got a really wierd problem. First of all, don't call me an emo or any of that nonsense or i will give you a 1, i am most definantly not.
so when my dad screams at me (about once or twice a day) he usually yells pretty bad, verbally abusing me, it hurts. so ever since i was younger instead of cry or let out my pain, because if i cried he would get even madder at me, i would pinch myself very hard or scratch myself secretly with my hands behind my back or so. i was about 7 when i started this. now this year it has gotten worse, i am getting screamed at for nothing and it has been worse then ever. i started scratching myself until i bleed. not until the skin is red, until blood is dripping. now i have 3 scars on my wrist and too many to count on my waist. i never thought i was a cutter b/c i didn't go cry and slice myself with a blade, i don't think i could ever do that. but i went bathing suit shopping with my friends and they saw the scars, and they were horrified. they had no idea what it was from, i didnt really know they were so noticable but they def. are. i am really happy all the time at school, a cheerleader vb player, a prep and every1 sees me as happy and hyper. i do cry sometimes, so im not like repressing everything. and im not emo, i don't self loath or anything. so why do i do this? make myself burn, sting, and drip blood? i don't know how to stop, i tried to rubber band and it doesn't work. i cnt seek professional help my dad will never allow it. please somebody help. I RATE 5'S FOR REAL ANSWERS (link)
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Hey. i'm really sorry this is happening to you, you don't deserve this. I know exactly how your feeling because I'm going through the same thing with my dad, when he use to yell at me for no reason I would occasionally start to cry but he'd get even madder and I would use self-injury.
Anyways I think that your using self injury as a way to deal with your dad's yelling.I dont know if you felt this way but when my dad screamed at me I'd feel useless, like I was doing somthing wrong even when I did nothing.
I think the first step is to get professional help or talk to a conselor, or someone, talking helps, it's a big step. Or you could call a hotline:
1-800-366-8288.
Don't let your dad know it's bothering you because if you do he'll know he has power over you and he'll do it even more just to remind you he's the boss.
I'm not saying stand up to him or anything it's not the best way, I've tried that, it didn't end up well. Just dont let him see that it bothers you, if he yells at you stay there until he finishes but ignore him, pretend your actually listening,when he's done walk out as if you dont care. Go to your room, listen to music or like someone here said shred paper into pieces. Just dont think about scratching yourself, also if you have long nails, cut them therefor if you scratch yourself the scars wont last long.
Though I really reccomend you getting help and talking to someone.Good Luck!
Sorry it was soo long.
Jessixa
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