Q: ok, i'll try to make this short and sweet. i've been with this guy whom i've liked since august for 3 months, officially, but we'd been "talking" since january. he's a great guy and i like him sooo much, starting to love him. not "in love", but you know.
recently, my first love has come back into my life. we were together for a year and a half, and one night he sexually assualted me. i ended things and we had a very painful break up. then we didnt talk for a few months. that one night was the first and only time anything like that happened, otherwise we were inseperable and completely perfect together. i said i would never take him back though, because that hurt me soooo much and really kinda messed me up for awhile. now that he's back in my life and we've been talking, i'm realizing that i never got over him. he was my first love so i guess a part of me always will. but he's not over me either, and holds back saying i love you to me since i'm with my new guy, even though he's almost slipped up a few times, and says he still misses me. i do miss him alot and he wants to come visit me at work one day, which im fine with, for the most part. i just dont want to fall deeper and deeper for him. on the other hand, i dont wanna quit talking to him, because we're finally ok as friends again after having gone through a lot of sh!t.
i DONT want to hurt my current boyfriend at all. i love being with him and i wanted him for so long, i dont want to screw that up, but my ex and i were so much more... compatible? and honestly, i dont think he would do what he did again. i dont even know what im asking. i dont want to mess up my relationship, i guess i just need to be able to get past my feelings for my ex, while still talking to him. i cant just tell myself that i cant be with him in hopes that that will work, because i know i cant be with him, but he still has a part of my heart. help !?
