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Hi everyone. I'm thirteen, and I have been struggling with suicidal thoughts and self-harm on and off for a long time now. I really want to stop, but nothing seems to work.
I cut because it relieves stress, I like the sight of blood, and it's a way to punish myself for being stupid. I feel like it's the only thing keeping me from suicide.
Speaking of suicide, I think about that a lot. But it is only a thought now, and I haven't acted on it yet.
I have two counselors and do not like either of them. I have been trying to convince my mom to let me try something else or see a different counselor because they aren't helping. But she always says it is helping and I just don't realize it. (No, that isn't true. I don't like them and they do not help me!!)
I don't feel like I have anyone to talk to or someone to understand me. The only person who is actually helping is my girlfriend. Not my counselors or anyone else.
The other thing that concerns me is how to hide the scars . . . are there any other ways to hide them other than wearing a sweatshirt all the time? I tried using bracelets and concealer, but those don't cover them up well enough.
I guess what I'm asking is, what else can I try to stop myself from cutting and also stop thinking about suicide? And how can I cover up the scars?
Thank you! (link)
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Hi, I totally understand you and I know how you're feeling. Please read this.
Suicide isn't the answer, whatever you're problems or worries about life you can't give up. Now you might think that life is crap but trust me better days will come. You just have to believe that something good is waiting for you around the corner.
I agree with you that counselors are an absolute waste of time. They don't help but make the situation even worse. They are however right with one thing:suicide is not an option and self-harm (yes relieves stress) is wrong and the scars (that you've mentioned) will stay with you for the rest of your life.
How to stop suicidal thoughts? It's not easy but I know that you will be able to do it. I mean you have a girlfriend that will support you (I didn't have such luck). If you don't do it for yourself yet do it for her. I mean she wants her boyfriend alive not dead. Now to get rid of suicidal thoughts you have to block them out (as soon as they pop in your head start thinking about something else-something pleasant such as things that you used to enjoy in life). About self-harm (cutting) try to find something else that relieves stress (don't choose alcohol-not a good option) like exercise. I started to exercise and it helped me to understand a few things+you will be so tired that you wont even want to think about suicide.You might even meet some new people. About having scars, they'll stay with you unless you stop fast enough.
I know that's not exactly what you've asked for but trust me if I'm happy than you can be to. You just have to believe (I believe in you).
If you ever feel that you would like to talk to someone who's been in a similar situation, feel free to email me at:
Natka143@hotmail.co.uk
Hope that I've helped you. Sending you my love xxx
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Thank you so much! I really appreciate your advice. :)
(I guess I should have mentioned that I'm actually a girl who likes girls and not a boy, but whatever.)
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