I am a loner I have my family but that's it. I'm 22 but feel like Im 60, I have been through so much in life that people who know me tell me I should write a book. I like helping people, and having my voice heard. So here I am ..
Gender: Female
Location: born in bosnia live in iowa
Occupation: student and full time job
Age: 22
Member Since: May 15, 2012
Answers: 6
Last Update: May 16, 2012
Visitors: 1096
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hi, im a 17 year old female. Im a Christian, God and i are really tight. im known amongst my friends as being the pure, innocent Christian one who would never hurt a fly. i have never drunk or done drugs, havent dated, and i neverrr swear. But, ocassionally i can get in the mood to satisfy some certain... wants.
you see, every now and then, ill read these manga with really lewd sex scenes in them on a website. some ofthem can get pretty graphic. now dont get me wrong, ihave never and WILL never masturbate. but every now and again, ill just randomly want to look them up. now, i have never watched sex animes or looked up real life porn. ive looked up manga, and read some certain dirty fanfictions, but never anything worse. ill only read them for about 15 minutes or so before i get this huuuuugely awful feeling in my stomach, and stop. then i proceed to immerse myself in as much innocent things as i can in orderto get those awful images out of my head.
im not trying to make excuses for myself or justify my actions, but im saying they're not as extreme other people's can be, and I am certainly nooot addicted to it. but... yeah.
can any Christian, or well, you don'thave to be Christian, people relate to what im doing or feeling? i just want to make sure im not insane. Thanks. :) (link)
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I am not a Christian but I am all about god as well. God as I see him is very forgiving. The 6 biggest sins that god doesn't forgive is murder, child or domestic or animal abuse, rape or dishonor, that's a few examples. But now as for the reading sexual magna, or watching porn we are human god understands this he will forgive you. Honestly with all the rules that people believe god has, We all would be going to Hell all of us have sined in our lives, its part of life. What god wants the most is for us too learn from our mistakes, admit that we were wrong, give amends to those we hurt, and forgive those who trespass against us. I myself have sins, but I have learned from my mistakes and I am fixing them. So my answer to your question no your not going to Hell for doing what you are, and yes its normal we are all human.
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Thank you very much! This does make me feel more at ease, although I do disagree in the six sins he DOESN'T forgive; I think God forgives us for ALL of our sins. He doesn't pick and choose. But I appreciate your answer all the same! :) Thanks again!
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