Member Since: December 4, 2009
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15/f
sorry it's kind of long.
lets just put this out here: i consider myself to be 110% straight. i could never even CONSIDER being with another girl.
another thing, i have never had a boyfriend or kissed anyone. although i've had MANY opportunities to be in a relationship, i've passed them all up. i think i have commitment issues or something, or just a fear of being "trapped" in a relationship.
ONE more thing-i have WAY more guy friends then i do girl friends. I find girls...very annoying and over dramatic, and i try not to get involved in drama. My closest friends are girls, but i get along much better with guys.
anyways, lately, some of my guy friends have jokingly called me prude. they've also told me i was a lesbian. my closest guy friend ASKED in complete seriousness if i was a lesbian (his reason being because i hung out with my best friend alot, who is a girl).
if theres ONE thing i hate, it's being accused of something i'm not. being called a lesbian really makes me upset and angry, and i've made it clear to my buy friends. whenever it comes up, i get quiet or i tell them to knock it off. it's a touchy subject for me.
the other day, i was out to dinner with my mom and my sisters. i told my mom something that was surprising to her, and she says "why don't you just tell me your a lesbian and we'll be all set!" (she said this jokingly) i looked at her and i said "don't joke about that", my natural response. my moms smile fades and she goes "you aren't are you?" and i said "no mom..." and then she was quiet and i started to talk to my sister. when i looked back at her, she was studying me strangely and i asked her what was wrong and she says "you AREN'T, are you?" which made me angry, and i said "MOM, i can't BELIEVE you would even THINK something like that. of COURSE i'm not."
I'm so afraid my mom thinks i actually am a lesbian. because, i mean, it would make sense. never having a boyfriend and all that. my sister TOTALLY didnt help when she said "mom, just because she doesn't have any feelings for guys doesn't make her a lesbian." if there was ever a time i wanted to kill my sister, it would have been then.
It is SO untrue that i don't have feelings for guys. me and my best friend are BOY CRAZY. we think almost every guy we know is either cute or hot. and i have crushes on guys on a regular basis.
it feels like NO ONE (except my best friend) can understand how i feel about all this. it gives me a horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach worrying about why people would have to WONDER if i'm straight or not. i've NEVER done anything to make me seem like a lesbian other than the fact that i've never had a boyfriend (and that's more out of fear than no interest in it).
i just really need to know what to do.
please, DON'T give me the "it's OK to have feelings for girls" talk. because if i saw that i think i might cry in frusturation. i DO NOT have ANY feelings WHATSOEVER for stupid girls. thats why i asked this very long question.
it's not exactly something i can just ignore either. so i don't know if that's a good solution.
please, just reading this whole question and answering it with something would be greatly apreciated. it's a very frusturating and confusing situation and it makes me angry and sad.
thanks so much (link)
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OMG! i tottaly get where you are coming from,i understand how frustrating it is.....i think all this is putting too much pressure on you...My numba one advice is dont let anyone pressurize you in doing somthing you are not ok with.i get you are into guys but have some comitment issues,i used to be like that too...so dont go having a boyfriend when you arenot tottaly ready for it,just because you want to prove ur straight,i mean to hell with what anyone thinks,u know what u are and what you are not,so just go ahead with yourlyf and have a boyfriend when you are 100% okay......lemme kno what you think abwt my advyc.....nd how it wrks out!
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thanks so much you really helped me:)
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