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i'm in highschool, and i've never had a boyfriend. i've never even really had anything close to a boyfriend, like a guy i'm dating or something. i've kissed 6 different guys, but i dont talk to any of them. i barely even have any guys friends. i feel like complete shit about myself every single day because i think i'm so ugly because i never have a guy, and my friends always do. i really don't think i'm ugly, i just have some acne right now. but my friends are gorgeous, every guy is in love with them, they all have had boyfriends/dated and i'm so sick of being the only one different. i'm the kind of girl who is a hopeless romantic and i'm soo into all that mushy stuff, and i'm the one who's never had anything close to it. yes i realize i'm very young and it doesn't matter right now, but i still can't help but feel like i've been waiting sooo long and i feel so alone. ALL i want is to alwyas have a guy to talk to/ be dating someone.but i NEVER have anyone. well, i've had like 2 guys i remotely talked to for a little, and i become OBSESSED with them because they're the only guys that have ever actually acted like they liked me just a little bit, so i became extremely attached even though there wasn't much going on. that's how pathetic i am. i cry myself to sleep every night and i always feel sad, especially when i'm around my friends and they get soo much boys attention and i don't. i really don't think i'm ugly, but i must be, because i don't get what else is wrong with me. i talk normally in front of guys and try to have a personality. but nooo. never even any guy FRIENDS. every second of the day i dream about the love of my life and finding him and falling in love and being sooo happy finally. even though i know it won't be soon. i would be happy just having a boyfriend even if we weren't in love, or always have a guy to talk to, or always having guys want me. thats ALL i want. and i know it sounds so needy and pathetic but i can't help it anymore, i realized that i'm obsessed with boys but i don't have any boys of my own and allll i want is boys boys boys. but i have 0. every day all i think of is trying to find ways to have boys like me and get guys attention. i would seriously be soooo happy if as many guys liked me that like my friends. i always think somethings wrong with me and its soo unfair. i feel so depressed and soemtimes i even drink a lot because i'm upset about never having a boy or being alone. what is wrong with me and what can i do to finally change this? it's my dream and goal to have a boy, even a boy to date and hang out with and talk too not even a completely full out boyfriend, although that would be even better.what can i do to finally get this and to stop being so depressed about it every second of my life? it's all i think about. and i'm soooo jealous when i see girls that have a boy that loves them, or even a boy to talk to. i hate this :( (link)
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i used to be just like u girly. i know EXACTLY how you feel. i remeber when i used to go to the mall with my friends and all the guys hit on them and i was so annoyed and sad about never getting guys attention or being liked. but i found out that i would rather have amazing true friends and a great life then worrying about wat guys thought of me. when i did so guys seemed to be pointless. but now im in true love and it all happened unexpectidly! you cant go around looking for ur love you have to let it find you and dont worry... it ALWAYS does! i know you mite be thinking, "but that could take forever!", but trust me girl it will be worth it! you just have to stick in there and wait for it to come! i hope iv helped and i wish you the best of luck! :)
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