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14/F
Okay. Like, really, I am about ready to just give up on guys. Ugh. So this guy I like right now (well not really anymore) is a complete ahole, I don't even know why I like him. But he really only just wants to feel me up. Everytime I text him or call him, he says he's busy and that he'll text/call me when he's done... he NEVER does. But of course, whenever he calls/texts I should just be ready to talk to him. I don't know... He's sweet, but, what the hell?
Then there was the last guy I liked. I really, really, really, liked him for like two years, but he said he wasn't ready for a relationship. Which I can get because, yeah, I'm young and stuff so I thought we'd just wait till like highschool or something. Yeah well, he moved away. F my life.
And it kind of sucks because my three bestfriends are all insanely pretty, and I mean, I know I'm pretty too, but they're gorgeous. It sucks so bad that whenever we go out, the boys all flirt with them and then they turn to me like a sloppy second. Plus all of the guys at school like me, but they made this like "Top Five Hot Girls" and I wasn't on it. I know its stupid and dumb and immature and I should waste my time worrying about it, but it hurts you know? I love my friends, and they're the best but it's so hard hanging out with them, because all I can do is compare myself and it's all because I have sucky self esteem.
Then there's this other guy that I kind of like right now. But because I'm an idiot, I like threw myself at him. Like I tried to talk to him 24/7 so I looked like a creepy obsessed girl... and well I think I blew it with him which really stinks cuz I think it could have worked. And that whole ordeal really hasn't helped my confidence much at all.
So at the moment, I'm kind of just ready to give up. I think about all of that stuff I just wrote and, God, I feel so pathetic. I feel ugly and gross and unwanted and stupid. What the hell is wrong with me? Why can't I just be happy with myself? Why do these dumb boys' opinions matter to me so much? (link)
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Every girl always wants that happy ever after ending/prince charming, I know this because I spent hours upon hours waiting by the phone for him. What I think most girls forget it, you have your whole life to find him or LET HIM FIND YOU. Instead of throwing yourself at guys, let them see more sides of you because I'm sure you have a lot to offer. Think of it this way, even though your best friends have tons of guys throwing themselves at them, it's only physical attraction. Honestly, it's not like their going to marry any of these guys. I know sometimes you just want someone to hold your hand and someone to talk to at night but texting a potential future boyfriend every five minutes can come off as clingy and emotionally unsteady. Be yourself and don't be too eager. Good things come to those who wait. I learnt that the hard way. I chased off every boy I knew even though I was "pretty" because I just wanted someone to love me. But how can anyone love you if you don't love yourself? Be confident and stop comparing yourself to your friends in a negative way. I'm sure you possess qualities your friends don't and that's why they're your friends. Think of why they admire you and focus more on those things. I hope I helped.
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