Q: This is kinda long but really important and relatively easy, so please read through! I promise to rate.
So I have this friend who I've known since I was in 2nd grade, been friends with since 4th and been best friends with since 7th.
Basically her and my bestbestwickedbest friend became closer a few months ago and I felt really left out. My defense mechanism to that is to separate from them, and eventually they'll realize that they miss me and will willingly accept me back into the friendship. Its always worked in this past for me. This time, it didnt. For nearly two months I felt bitter and alone. I began avoiding them when I felt like they were giving me pity conversations and began hanging out with my other friends more who I felt really wanted me there. However, these two friends took it as separation and bitchiness and began using my normal character traits against me, like how I supposedly talk about people. I won't lie. Yes, I do gossipper. But barely any of it is negative and I am never, ever mean. I'm in high school, everyone gossips, including those girls, and to deny that would be a lie. So they bitched me out brutally and I felt like I was on rock bottom, I had nobody to lean on - I don't have a good home situation and am very emotionally isolated/independent (however you want to look at it). I broke down.
That was just over two months ago. Things have kinda gotten back to normal with my bestbest friend-- she's kinda changed a bit herself (she got a boyfriend and I feel like she's not herself around him, in a bad way, and doesn't want to hang out with me as much anymore, but that's another issue) but I'm not bitching about it.
The other one, though, told me today, again, that I changed. By Facebook bumper stickers, nonetheless. NOT KIDDING. The message that went along with it said something like, "Just a heads up, I want the old you back!" then the bumper sticker said some shit like "I miss you... the old you." Like WTF?
I haven't been extremely friendly with this girl since the fall-out a few months ago because I don't think that she's trustworthy. She instigated the bitch-out back then- the other friend would never have brought it up. And I know that if I say anything to support her claims of talking about people, even if its just neutral statements (I've stopped a lot since then, realizing none of it can lead to good), she'll spread it around or wave it in my face.
Also we just don't have anything in common anymore. We dress differently (I'm girly, she has dirty greasy hair and lives in sweats - I used to not care when I was younger, but I think its disgusting now) have different music tastes (I like modern, she likes country). I like to go to the mall. She doesn't like to do anything but go see horror movies / crime show tv shows. Its hard to find any common ground with her- even our sense of humor.
And where I used to find her completely hilarious in years passed (she's the "funny" one), I just find her completely obnoxious now. I can't stand her, although I haven't told anyone or said anything to hint at it. I just don't really laugh anymore, just smile. I'm not mean to her at all, I'm civil, to say the least. She's just annoying and untrustworthy - to me.
Why the hell do yuo think she would send me a freakin bumper sticker of all things (like, really?!?) instead of talking to me? And do you think its worth trying to repair the friendship? Any views whatsoever on the matter would help me greatly.
Thanks SO much!
...16/f btw:)
