Member Since: April 2, 2009
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Last Update: April 21, 2009
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God damn it im such an idiot... i hate how mind's work, my best girl mate (who's extremely beautifull in my eyes) and has the best personality. every time i see her w have such a good time and then she gos and she's all i can think about... its been like this for years but i dont think iv ever realised it. we'v liked eachother before and i'v even gone as far as loving her maybe twice out of the 7 or more years i'v known her. we'v never gone out but she did kiss me once when i loved her and it made me so happy beyond belief, the only thing is shes allways with somone... the time she kissed me she had this absoloute arse of a BF who mistreated her loads (they are no longer going out thanks god). and now again today i saw her she was with her mate and my guy mate came round were both 17 by the way and shes just turned 18 and her freinds the oldest at 19. so it all started out like it allways dos, muckin around on the internet then we went out side and skated and chatteed for a bit (she also wore this really.. revealing top and my god have her boobs grown since the last time i saw her) i know i know i shouldnt be looking she has a boyfriend! >_< i havent had a GF in 4 years and it gets to me every once in a while just how awesome she is... but it also frustrates me to think maybe it would be better if we never did or were meant to be that way together, we have a great friend ship i wouldnt trade for anything else in the world and if i went out with her would i be any good? would it drive us apart if we broke up? am i even in her league? every one tells me im such a nice guy but when your in a class of girls (8 of them been with that class for 2 years now) all with boyfriends and endlessly talking about how good they are to them its sorta drivven my confidence and self esteem down into the ground. so many thoughts are rushing around my brain... mostly thinking of her, could it be the hormones?? am i just in LUST with her and not liking/loving her like a normall person? it switches i guess, one minute shes all i think about her cheeky smile and sexy glasses and how good it would be just to hug her while enjoying every moment we couldnt ever spend while shes with him. i dont envy her current BF he seems to be the only one who's actually showing how love should be he's all she talks about and im happy for her, other bf's were assholes even though it took her a loong time to realise it =/
i know this is long sorry sorry sorry but its one of those things that you have to tell some one and know that the person you like wont ever find out...
should i tell her that i feel this way for her nearlly every time were together? that i think about every good and bad time we'v scraped through and loved her through? its not like other girls i'v liked either were i feel so on edge because i know they know i like them with her its like.. I LOVE HER!! but i can still be me around her wre so relaxed together and iv never had that with any girl. please explain to me what i could be expirieencing or how i could deal with this? thanks for your time it is very much appreciated (link)
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Two words. TELL HER!
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I have told her before time and time again but nothing ever comes of it, also with new found confidence issues... im not exactly in the right state of mind to confess :( if you have any more advice plz answer again :D
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