Q: For about 4 or 5 years I've liked my best guy friend. We were on and off liek that entire time but he goes to a jewish camp every summer, so we'd always just date other people. And don't get me wrong, during those 4-5 years, I had other boyfriends, not many, but I did. But i always, always liked him. I really think I loved him. But i don't even know if i did, and then, at the end of summer he was in LBI and asked me out. he even wanted me to come down for a few days with his family, i thought it was so sweet :] but my mom wouldn't let me. [btw, our families are friends ..] so we had made it offcial and he was my first kiss. it was always him that i wanted my first kiss to be with. :] he plays guitar and he played our song ... rhcp:i could die for you. but then when school started we never saw eachother and it got awkward, liek i didnt know if i was supposed to hold his hand or not, or if he wanted me too, and hes really smart, and really tall, so when we hugged it was awkard .. but there was this camp girl and she told him [while we were going out] that she wanted to hook up with him. i got mad at him for not denying her. and then things got more awkward and eventually he said we should just be friends and that its better off that way. and he told 2 of my friends that we're not going to get back together and that we're just friends. but the only way i agreed to go out with him is that if he promised we would stay best friends and not be awkward. he broke that promise. and now we havent talked for 3 motnhs and hes so bitter. he said something really mean to my best friend the other day and idk it made me cry. i think i still liek him. but he doesnt liek me. i want him back. but i know thats never gonna happen. please just dont tell me to forget about him. i need help. idk what to do. I can't get him out of my head. someone help me !! any feedback on what i said??

btw: im a 16/f sophomore ... hes a 15/m sophomore. [sorry if that was long] :[

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