Heey, my names Amber, Im 18 years old. I really love helping people, I want to be a therapist when I grow up. I have suffered from depression twice in my life and have pretty much been through it all. I like to think Im good at giving advice, especially when it relates with Mental Health or Relationships. Im such a people pleaser so Ill always be there when you need me. I think thats pretty much it, but yeah, I hope to be answering lots of questions and helping everyone along the way. So yeah, thats all, thank you!
Gender: Female
Location: New Hampshire
Age: 18
Member Since: August 11, 2008
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I feel sad all the time. Right when I think I'm having a good time, I just feel like crying. All the time I just want to cry.
Things just haven't gone the way I've wanted them to for so long and I just have this heavy weight of sadness on my shoulders. I can't even talk about it because I don't think anyone would want to hear it. My best friend and I talk all the time, but it's mostly about her. I help her through everything but can never tell her what's bothering me. I don't like to talk about it because I don't want her to leave me all alone like my other "friends" if she thinks I'm being stupid or selfish talking about myself. I don't want to be selfish.
I try so hard to be nice all the time and hardly speak my mind or bother people with how I feel because being nice is so important. But it's wearing me down. I keep everything inside and I don't think I could let it out because everyone would leave me again. Well, everyone that's left. It isn't fair, but I shouldn't say that. I don't want to complain because I don't want to come across as a brat.
I just want the sadness to go away. I just basically wallow in self-pity which isn't good and I know that. But I can't pull myself out of it. I don't know how to. I feel like such a bad person because I probably am. I'm trying to change things about myself so maybe I can feel better, but I'm never good enough. I'm so upset and I just want to stop crying all the time. But I can't. ='[ (link)
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Wow, word for word you are exactly like my best friend. She refuses to talk to me, even though Ive told her soo many times that I want to know so badly, because I hate seeing her sad. She doesnt know this, but when things bother her, they bother me to the point where Im in tears for her!! Another thing, is that shes such a bad liar. Shes all like Im fine whenever someone shows concern. But I know shes not. Im positive shes depressed. Shes certainly not herself. She used to care so much about everything, she was the most passionate person you would ever meet but something happened, I dont know what, but all the time now she mopes around and stuff, and its soo unhealthy, but anyways you sound sooo much like her, its scary, you probably have depression too. Take my advice, and talk to SOMEONE who cares about you and wants to help. Maybe a friend or a counselor or someone? Anyways, you would NOT be selfish to focus on yourself, if your like my friend, its everyones problems except yours, right? Its okay!! Your not a bad person, your not selfish, and your not a brat! Depression is sooo serious, talk to your parents, they can help. If not please please talk to somebody now!! My friends life has affected me soo much and Im so scared for her, if I cant help her, please let me help you!
BTW, I would want to listen to you, if I was your friend, Im listening to you right now arent I? If I didnt care, I wouldnt have answered your question. I care soo much more than you think. I know its hard to talk to someone. I had depression twice, and it took every last ounce of strength I had to tell someone I was depressed. I became better. It was because I was abused for three years, I didnt even remember, I blocked it all out. But I remember now, and Im soo happy I told someone. You cant deal with Depression by yourself. I tried, it doesnt work. If you want, you can talk to me. Im not a therapist, not by far, but you got to start somewhere, right?
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It's harder than it sounds talking to someone. Nobody would want to hear it.
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