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Thank you for your advice. I just wanted to elaborate on the situation more...
I have tried to just hang out with my friends minus her, and it got me into a load of trouble. She explodes in your face if not invited places and it's really really hard. Like, I'm still paying the price for not inviting her to one thing (I swear it was only one thing). But my other friends don't invite her any places and they don't get any trouble for it. So, she must just not like me at all and it's so stupid because I know that she isn't worth anything as a person and it's not as simple as you would think just to stop being her friend or stop being friends with her 'followers'. She already won sorta. She claimed their attention and they all decided to turn on me and kick me out of the group. I'm just now trying to gain it all back. And I have sorta, my friends are getting a little sick of her and want to hang out with me somewhat. But she sees that happening and puts herself back into the spotlight. I think she might just see me as a threat...which is totally stupid because I'm so shy and closed in that she knows I wouldn't dare try and get rid of her. She's trying so hard to get rid of me.

I am not jealous of her in the least bit. I personally think she's pathetic for doing this to me...and trying to do it to a few other people. If anything, she might be jealous of me. But I don't know. I used to be jealous of her last year when I was good friends with her because I saw her as able to talk so easily with people about things. But I've come to realize that she is the fakest person on the planet and will say anything to anybody to get attention.

I can't just walk away from my friends. I've already had to walk away from a group of friends in the past and don't want to do it again. I do have another group of friends I could join, but I don't want my life to turn into a constant shifting of relationships. Like, if something doesn't work out I'm just supposed to get up and leave every time? I don't know. I'm just trying to be strong and still praying that this will all blow over...but it's been close to six months now and I'm not even sure anymore. I could at anytime shift over to my other group of friends...but what if this happens again with them? That will have been the third time. What would that say about my character? It's not that I get jealous, because I don't very much...so I just don't know what could be wrong with me. I try so hard to figure it out, but I just end up hating myself even more than I already do.

This is the icing on the cake for me, so now I more information for you.

She is still jealous of you, and wants to bully you because you have taken it. I think you have felt like you owe her something because of when you have left her out that one time, but you owe no one anything but yourself. Also, I understand that you can't just walk away from your friends, but if they are causing you to feel isolated or causing you to have to jump up with your hands in the air, then they are pushing you away, which is different from you walking away. you feel me?

If something doesn't work out for you, you are supposed to do whatever it takes to make you happy and work for you, so if it's walking away everytime until you get grounded and are happy about it, then yes walking away everytime is what has to be done. You are still at the age of finding yourself and with that being said, there are many relationships, situations and friendships that you are going to go through until you find that special place that suites you. Praying works and they are always answered.

God shows us things when we pray, and whenever it comes to change, we as people tend to tense up, get scared, get worried, and question our decision when we already know what's best for us. What's wrong with you is the fact that you are sick of the bs dear heart and I say GOOD! be tired and do something about it. You have no reason to hate yourself so don't, instead love yourself and the moment that you do love yourself you will realize that you don't have to deal with the crap that you are dealing with. There are honestly still hard feelings between you and this girl, because you haven't really addressed your issues with her, and it's because she will blow up most likely, so what? what's best, you blow up from pressure building up inside of you or you tell miss thang how you feel, let her blow up and throw her temper tantrum and go on about your way.

When people are true friends, you can tell them about themselves and your feelings and regardless to if they agree or not, they can agree to disagree with out all the drama. Also, you can't get in trouble with anyone but your parents - take that thought on instead. This girl is only going to do to people what they allow her to do, but know this, what goes around, comes around and so she will get it back one day. KNOW THIS.

I noticed that you have mentioned prayer which tells me that you do have a relationship with God. Instead of praying that it blows over, pray for understanding, wisdom, vision, and knowledge. Pray for new friends, who are good friends sent from him and not those who you have picked out.

What do you consider yourself to be? real or fake? if you're real, then you don't want to deal with fakeness because your mental can't receive fakeness from anyone, right? right. This group of friends are they real or fake? do you all have things in common? never force friends to chose between you and someone else either, simply isolate yourself, pull away and find new friends, upon doing this, you will find new happiness too.

Why are you determined to force people to accept you? If she is running them, let her. Why do you keep calling them your friends when you are saying that they kicked you out of the group, they turned on you, she gives you bs and not them?

If the same friends that hang with her are talking about her to you, then they are also talking about you to her which makes them 2 faced - did you know that? A dog that buries a bone, also carries a bone. remember this.

If these girls were your friend they would get ms. thang and you together and they would say: we are friends with you two and this bs between you has to stop because it's silly and stupid - they wouldn't support it and leave you out and cause your feelings to be hurt like this. Do you understand this?

Until you get a little older, and mature so will your circle of friends change too. It happens all of the time, so it's OK and is not abnormal to change friends. What does it say about your character? That you aren't going to tolerate being disrespected. That you love who you are and that you don't have to kiss anyone's butt for attention, or friendship, That you are too good of a friend to deal with fake friends who do not have your back, but I bet you would have their back, right? right.

You have said that she's pathetic, attention driven, and in competition with you on some degree or level so why do you want to hold on to this in your life, which is causing you to question yourself when your friends and her need to question themselves for their actions? It's not you who has an issue and problems, it's them so please stop blaming yourself. You can accept anything you want to accept in your life, but remember this: NEVER SETTLE. OK? here's my email if you want to email me too, it's cool.
sophia_pettus@yahoo.com

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(Rating: 5) Thank you. But just so you know: I am not forcing anyone to accept me. I don't force anyone to do anything. If they don't accept me, I usually close in within myself because I'm so shy and then blame myself for their lack of acceptance. But you don't know me personally, so how would you know this about me? So thank you for the advice and I'll try to use it in my situation...
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