heyehy i'm ashlee
most people call me ashlee but i personally like ash. i'm 14 and i live in connecticut, i have the most amazing friends ever. i'm not perfect one bit, i have many things about me people don't know, i have anxiety&&depression i was diagnosed with my anxiety when i was about 7 but i had it since 5. my depression was last year and it was so scary, i love to help people with any type of problem they may have. back in 1st grade my best friend and i actually had a fix fight club, when two people were fighting we would help them sort it out haha
E-mail: omgitsashlee3@hotmail.com
Gender: Female
Location: connecticut
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Age: 14
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I am not a cutter but I have cut myself. Only a few times im not addicted. i have self-injured myself as well. My one best friend knows because she used to and i felt very comfortable telling her. my other best friend used to as well and im going to tell her too. she goes to my school though shes older but she will be able to help me even more. im kind of preppy and usually outgoing and happy. dont think im like an 'emo' or w/e. i want to know why i should stop because I know it isnt good but it helps me and just because its different doesnt neccasarily mean its bad-does it?
i know hurting myself isnt the right way too but i never cut deep or a lot and i don't self injury myself any more than mildly. its how i deal with stress and being upset. sumtimes i write but other times i dont have time to sit there and write i need immediate relief. thats what i think of it as-relief. quick, easy, relief. and it helps. i want to stop but in another way actually i dont.
im afraid to tell my bf because i dont want him to think something is wrong with me even tho he works at a teen youth center helping kids with addictions. he still might not want to date me-just be friends.
i have a lot im dealing with and thats just the way i do. my parents dont know either and they would freak if they knew. it isnt on my arms i have a couple on my stomach and a couple on my leg. 2 on my arm but you cant tell they were intentional cuts. i like seeing them and knowing that they represent what im dealing with. it comforts me. any suggestions or advice? i want to know why its bad and what else to do thats quick and easy. it feels like it isnt bad and doesnt really hurt me. it doesnt endanger me so why worry? i guess thats what i think. i at first (i just started last week anyway) i thought of myself as a 'cutter' but now im almost ok with it and just think of myself as a girl dealing with her emotion and problems in her own way.
Thanks so much!
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okay welll at least you know what your doing can really hurt some people. its still not good to take your stress and cut yourself, you need to try and find other ways to deall with it. like for me i like hate needles and stuff like that so i could never cut myself but i thnk for the most part people try it a few times in their life. try downloading some music like ocean waves, birds chirping, etc relaxing music and when you are going to cut yourself just try and listen to that and take deep breaths maybe try yoga, you can find it on the internet, just anything that wont hurt yourself.
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thanks thats cool i never thought or sumthing like that :)
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