My name is Kristin. I am here to help anyone who needs it. It does not matter what it's about, I'll help you out. I'm a very nice, and open person. I can tell you what I know, and I will never judge you. You can take what you want from my opinion and leave the rest.
Gender: Female
Location: California
Member Since: September 26, 2007
Answers: 34
Last Update: November 18, 2008
Visitors: 3365
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Every since the begining of this school year I've been feeling really depressed. There are a lot of different reasons why. First of all, I dont have many friends. I have one close friend who I hang out with everyday, but sometimes she blows me off, which is understandable, to hang out with other people, and I wonder the halls alone, feeling like an idiot, wishing I were at home. I live in a small town and go to a small school so I already know everybody and its hard to make new friends when you're a sophmore in high school and everybody is separated by "levels of coolness".
Last year, life was great. I was a freshmen and I was dating a junior, who I fell for. We broke up after about 4 months and we pretty much lost all contact. Thats what hit me the hardest. I still love him but hes in love with his new girlfriend. I keep thinkin that I'll never find another guy because I've been single for months and everyday I tell myself things will get better but they never do.
I hate waking up everyday knowing that it will just be another sad, pathetic repeat of what happened the day before. I want out of this life. I want to drop out of school. Or move. Or die. I dont care anymore. Ive never felt like this before and Im really starting to scare myself. I keep thinking about killing myself. I've thought about it a couple times before but I always knew in the back of my mind that I would never do it. Now im not so sure.
Usually I would talk to someone about how im feeling to try to work things out but i have nobody to talk to. asking random people for advice on the internet is pointless too....i dont even know why im doing it. I just want to die. I want to stop hurting inside. there are so many other things going on in my life that i cant even explain on here because I dont want to tell anybody. I hate it so much.
please..........does anybody have any good advice. nothing like "try to make more friends" or "you'll get a new boyfriend, just put yourself out there" i need to hear something real. (link)
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I know what it feels like to have nobody that listens, and I've been in some very bad situations myself.
Breaking up with someone you love, hurts! More than anything, and I know that, and I will not try and change your mind about that. But, until you decide that "YOU" are going to move on, it's going to keep dragging you down. I know you are barely hanging on to what you have left, but you have to focus on what you do have. You do have that one great friend, and you do have a life, it's just not where you want it to be right now. Either is mine, and it sucks, but I refuse to give up. You only have one life, and ONLY YOU can change things. Every time I think my life is terrible, and I feel there is no reason to live, I remember that I am not the only one. I do not have it as bad as some. Life is to short for you to want to throw it away, trust me.
I may be a stranger on the Internet, but I am more than willing to help you. If you ever need someone to talk to, write me, I will respond. Sometimes your last resort can be the best option you have. Just take it one step at a time, have goals, and don't let the things in your "Past" drag you down OK!
I do hope that I helped you, and please don't hesitate to write if you want to ok.
Kristin
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