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does anyone here have clinical depression or bipolar or something like that? ever since i was 9 i had fits of serious mood drops. i even tried commiting suicide at 13 (i have no idea how i survived i took a new bottle of asprin and panadol and a whole box of capsul medicine i didn't know what for -probably dad's coz he has diabetes and cholesterol and HBP- anyway i went to bed and woke up as if nothing happened)
then i tried it again but my sister had beat me up to take it (she's basically my mom... my mom's so passive... scared my dad wud blame her for screwing up the family)....
oh and the reason i'm asking about bipolar is that i usually get weired mood swings. i am so depressed and misrable and aloof all through the day but get so hyper at night and try to kid with my family and they just say i am weired....
also recently, my first time away from home, i went with a bunch of my friends for about 4 months and i totally went crazy. no boundaries no fear of danger no nothing. then i went home i was fine but my younger brother told my parents and so now new rules even though i am away from home... its basically house arrest or with my probation officer (my dumb annoying brother).
so i am not sure if it is my home condition or if i have something wrong with me :s .... i cant go to a shrink because me parents will freak out. and as i've said i can't leave without someone with me....
i get really upset if i THINK i did something stupid in front of friends and family and i end up getting so depressed because of it, moping for days and just staying in bed.... i have a fear that people will think i am stupid and just leave me.. i admit i had a very.. well complex childhood. we had money but its not about that... i knew i was different from the day i was born... my parents say i am spoiled, oversensitive, dramatic, complex.......
oh plus we have depression and bipolar running in the family... uncle and aunt and my older bro (though i sometimes think it was either from his surgery he suddenly went crazy, or he wasn't and dad just pretended he was and put hem in with all his connection so he could stop interfering with the business...)
what are the odds of me having it!?
and what can i do to find out?
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Scarborough, Ontario, ca
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If you want to find out you have bipolar disorder have your mom or dad make you an appointment with the doctor and get yourself checked out. I am telling you this because bipolar disorder is nothing to play with.And also it could be also the structure in your home that could have something to do with you to. How to find out both is when you go to the doctor tell him all of the things you wrote in your question and he will be the final decision of what is going on with you. You need to talk to a medical doctor not a shrink ok.
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Rating: 5
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oh i didn't think its this severe.... :s
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