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So yeah , its the carnival , a time to hang out with friends and see everyone from schools and so on. The other night i went and i was with a bunch of my friends. I felt totally left out. like wow. embarrased kind of. Like they would talk to eachother and such what and not include me. like; it would be a circle of just them, and i would be out of it. literally. Oh and when i turned around to answer my cell, no one noticed. they went to go meet one of their other friends. i dont know, it kills me to see that i have those kind of friends, you know? so much stress man. like okay, i'll tell you about them. So my bff J, ive known her the besstt out of the whole group. shes awsome, shes like my sister.And then i have my otheer bff M, aha shes hilarious and we have so much in common.Annnd then theres the other four. I dont really talk to them but im friends with them, i eat with them at lunch. i know im still approving the relationships with them but still. No one should just leave someone . that sounds tacky, but im pretty sure you know what i meen. Gr. i just have to let it out. I dont show emotion, i meen im not emo or whatever, its just that ive been hurt so much in the past by the people who i called "best friends" that i can take , and im ready for anything that pops up in my way. I guess you can say im one of those people who dont really care about what you think about me, but for people to totally ditch me and embarass me by looking like a total loser trying to find her friends who left her, uhm no. so yeah, i left the carnival, showing the slightest bit of emotion, of hurt, or you can say happyness. I got home and thought of what had just happened, and it hit me; am i cared about? am i just "that girl". Do i have true friends or not because damn, at this piont i dont even know.
Im sorry if its long, but please give me advice. anything would help so much.
please.
okay, this happens to me alot. when their talking pretty much [this sounds horrible but whatever] push into the circle lmfao. i do it all the time. and then you join the circle/conversation. and after a while you'll just like be in the circle ya know?
(Rating: 5) lmao. ahha. will do. thanks!
mucho love.