heyehy i'm ashlee
most people call me ashlee but i personally like ash. i'm 14 and i live in connecticut, i have the most amazing friends ever. i'm not perfect one bit, i have many things about me people don't know, i have anxiety&&depression i was diagnosed with my anxiety when i was about 7 but i had it since 5. my depression was last year and it was so scary, i love to help people with any type of problem they may have. back in 1st grade my best friend and i actually had a fix fight club, when two people were fighting we would help them sort it out haha
E-mail: omgitsashlee3@hotmail.com
Gender: Female
Location: connecticut
Occupation: student
Age: 14
AIM: xoashhx33
Member Since: May 7, 2007
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15/f. I'm always sad. And I have no reason to be. I have friends, my parents are still together, I get things that I really want and need, my parents give me attention, people are nice to me, I get good grades...All that good stuff. You know? Nothing missing. But I'm just so upset. Everyday. Sometimes I have outbursts of happiness. But they usually last for as much as one hour. Now, as a sophomore, I have these feelings of hopelessness, helplessness, and sadness. I know I need to see a therapist, but my parents strongly disapprove, saying I don't need one. I used to cut myself just to get attention from people that weren't even my real friends. I even have thoughts of suicide. I feel like I'm in jail, you know? I'm always anxious and stressed and I rarely ever make plans with people anymore. I can't stand being alone. And I need [CRAVE] attention and affection to make my days (from people other than my parents), otherwise, it's like "what the hell am I living for?"
This all seems really ridiculous to me. I have never had any type of trauma. I've never been raped/molested etc...I'm just so f-ing confused.
What can I do? :\ What makes people happy? (link)
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i guess i can relate, i didnt want to listen to music and i was asking myself what im still here for, like there was one voice in my head telling me i shouldnt be here and im knew i had a good life, finally i couldnt take it and i told my mom and it was the hardest thing ive had to tell her but the next day she called my doctor and got the name of a lady who i went to see a few times and helped me get out of my situation. tell your mom you want to kill yourself, throw a few tears in and stuff and im sure she will get you help if she doesnt make it seem like you tried killing yourself and make it so she can see it, like leave a bottle of pills on the counter and hide the pills but leave the bottle with the cap off and then go lay down, pretend to sleep something to scare her so she knows you need help!!! it was the best thing i did let me tell you. if you need anything else im me xoashhx33 or email me xoashhx33@hotmail.com
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