Member Since: December 10, 2006
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Growning up I've always thought that if you have a boyfriend, everything and anything in life would be completely wonderful. That nothing else would matter, and he'd make me happy despite all the crap going on. Well..I've learned..that's not always the case. I have one of the most AMAZING boyfriends a girl could ask for. And when I say its almost perfect, I mean it. But lately..I've been dealing with a lot of issues within my life. About a year ago, things went really down hill for me with my family. I was kicked out for the stupidest reason, and when I came back, my mom and I got into a huge arguement, and she ended up beating the crap outta me. It was weird because the person I trusted the most, let loose on me with so much anger, and it was one of the worst expierences of my life. After that, I started my whole rebellion. Tons of smoking, drinking, drugs, and boys became my main focus in life. School has gone downhill for me, I've failed too many classes and it's going to be really hard for me to graduate. I'm in freshman/soph classes my junior year and its really embarrasing. My relationship with my mom is a dud, my dads depressed, and my sisters at that point in her life where her horomones are going insane. And I'll admitt, I'm a bitch to everyone. I can't really help it, but I don't see the point in being nice because it ends up biting me in the ass. I come home, take a shower, do my homework (sometimes haha), then go sit in my room and talk to my boyfriend, friends, or listen to music. Devil music according to my parents. I have really bad self-confidence issues, I feel like a complete loser, and I feel like everyone watches everything I do to see my faults. And I guess I feel really bad. With my boyfriend, I try to hide it because I don't want him getting upset. But I'm to the point where, I need to talk about it. And its fine with him, he wants to talk about stuff and understands. He also has his problems too..they're a lot similar to mine, so we can easily relate and stuff. He's been going through a lot of stress lately also, and he said part of it is because I've been so upset, and he hates to see it and doesn't know how to make me feel better. So my question is..how can I get happy again..? I'm not exactly depressed, but I have my times where I am. I just feel bad because I don't want my boyfriend thinking he doesn't make me happy..because he does more than anyone will ever know. I'm completely in love with this guy. It's just hard because I have so much going on in the back of my mind..and it's killing me. (link)
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Having a boyfriend is never just all fun and games. The two of you will have fights and arguments from time to time, and its up to you work them out. But you always have a lot of fun when you're together most of the time. Sometimes people think the best way to back life better is to doing drugs or drinking or smoking cigarettes, but its actually the worst thing you can to do yourself. All of those things only help to make you faster, and even though you may think they make you happier, they really don't. Try not to focus so much on the bad stuff in life, and put the past behind you. What's done is done, and no one can change that. Also try not to think about what other people say about you. It would also be a good idea to try and focus on one thing that would make you happier. Join a club, read your favorite, or arrange dates with your boyfriend, and try not to let things bother you during the day, and just keep reminding yourself that no matter what happens you'll always have something to look forward to later.
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:) good idea. i just need to let go of the past. although i will still have issues with my parentals..i guess i just need to get over them..haha. itll take a while but, hell thats life i suppose. thanks for you help :)
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