Q: i don't know exactly what i'm asking. & i don't know if anyone will be able to help. but i do need help. and it'd be appreciated if you do try.
i have depression, in addition, i'm most likely the shyest person on planet earth. i don't have too many friends because of both of these. in feel really insecure about my social life as well as myself. each time i attend school i feel like everyone's judging me & in a terrible way. In a way, i'm scared to show up to school. the idea of it really scares me. i psyche myself out for it. each day i think i'll go to school, but i get ready in the morning, can't find the right thing to wear & break down. See, i haven't exactly been to school for two weeks now. usually my dad would make me go to school; but in a sense he's given up. & i have to. each day i don't show up for school i realize that it will be harder to go back. but i can't bring myself to go. i haven't been in contact with friends in days & feel like i'll use the few i have, and i'm in the proccess of doing so. i don't know why i feel so bad, and i don't know why school is so scary for me. i want to feel better & be better but i'm doing nothing to helo myself.
so i guess i'm asking a few things.
1. why is it that school is scary to me?
2. how can i make it less scary?
3. ... just any advice is what im looking for. thought - or anything. just ideas as to what i can do.
... just ideas as to what i NEED to do. 5's for anyone who bothered reading with a sensible response. xx
