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I'm Jaz. I'm 17. I love photography and writing. and I've gone through a lot with self-injury, depression, and guys. I hope I can help you ask much as possible. I will give the most honest answer.

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im 15/f and i've got a really wierd problem. First of all, don't call me an emo or any of that nonsense or i will give you a 1, i am most definantly not.

so when my dad screams at me (about once or twice a day) he usually yells pretty bad, verbally abusing me, it hurts. so ever since i was younger instead of cry or let out my pain, because if i cried he would get even madder at me, i would pinch myself very hard or scratch myself secretly with my hands behind my back or so. i was about 7 when i started this. now this year it has gotten worse, i am getting screamed at for nothing and it has been worse then ever. i started scratching myself until i bleed. not until the skin is red, until blood is dripping. now i have 3 scars on my wrist and too many to count on my waist. i never thought i was a cutter b/c i didn't go cry and slice myself with a blade, i don't think i could ever do that. but i went bathing suit shopping with my friends and they saw the scars, and they were horrified. they had no idea what it was from, i didnt really know they were so noticable but they def. are. i am really happy all the time at school, a cheerleader vb player, a prep and every1 sees me as happy and hyper. i do cry sometimes, so im not like repressing everything. and im not emo, i don't self loath or anything. so why do i do this? make myself burn, sting, and drip blood? i don't know how to stop, i tried to rubber band and it doesn't work. i cnt seek professional help my dad will never allow it. please somebody help. I RATE 5'S FOR REAL ANSWERS

You're using self-destruction as a way to cope with your dad. I went through this. You really should talk to someone. Even if you're school counselor. Talking to someone is the best thing you can do. When I went through self-injury, I went to a counselor and now I'm here 10months clean of self-injury. Even if you go to talk about the way you're dad treats you and not mention the scratching, it may help you a lot.
Good luck.
If you need any more info on self-injury, please let me know, I will tell you anything that you need to know.

edit:
try palmer's coco butter. i hear it works for scars. or get scar reducer stuff from your local drugstore. i haven't tried anything for my scars yet, so i don't know what really works.

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(Rating: 5) my scars are deep, i mean i scratch my skin but the cuts are very deep, is there a way to make the scars go away?
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