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hey. yeah. i keep it real, and i'll try to help out annyway with annythin i can. im Em, and im a pretty smart chick. im a preddy good person, you know the type you would let babysit ur kids. dont take me for granted. i k how to rock it and keep it kool. w/o all the drugs and tequila. go ahead, ask me. ill anser. cuz u k im good lik that ;)

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Hey, please no wise-cracks. I really don't want to deal with them right now.
Just a forewarning, this is a long one.
Everything at school used to be so easy. Then I got prescribed an anti-acne drug, and hit puberty - somewhere in there something went missing, went wrong. In the years since then, I've kind of slowly lost my purpose, occasionally it would come back, but I have no real "Drive" anymore. That is mainly what worries me. I have become the model of apathy, all the while worrying about it. I suppose that a lot of psychologists would call it depression, and try to make me "better". They would ask if I had suicidal thoughts and everything. The problem is that I live because I am living. I have suicidal thoughts, that don't MEAN anything, and I don't WANT to die - and I don't even know why, because I don't care about much anymore. I care, and I don't care. I wish I had real "fair-weather" friends, while at the same time I can't break away from my poisonous ones. My schoolwork is important, and I screw myself up worrying about it, when I could get it done so much faster without worrying, and be happy in my spare time. I don't even know why my schoolwork is important anymore, but I don't want to sacrifice it, because I know it would screw up the rest of my life. I play computer games, because I don't want to do homework, and I don't have the will to do anything that I need to do, or want to do. I keep a list of things I want to do when I have spare time, instead of wasting my life playing computer games, but somehow I feel that I will never do them, because I just go back and addict myself to a computer game. I know that I NEED to do things, and that I am screwing up my life, and I still just CAN'T find the discipline to DO anything.

So my question in short;

How do I find my will?

How do I discipline myself to do things that matter?

How do I find the courage to make new friends?

How do I shake that constant feeling of knowing I've been put in to boxes, and nobody knows who I am, and actually find people who will help me to feel happy?

ok first, you need to get rid of your games. you either need to throw them out, store them away, or give them to your parents. inthen, you need to go to the bookstore and buy yourself a copy of "life stratigies for teens", and read the hole thing once or twice. it should shape you up most of the way. thats how i got over alot of my shyness, bad habbits, parent problums, denial problums,etc. and im shure it will help you. hope i helped!

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(Rating: 4) I can't get rid of the games, because there's always another game, or a website to download it from. I'll read the book, but I would've prefered personal advice.
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