Q: I know everyone has crazy thoughts... but mine are a bit strange. Like "overly crazy" and need the appropriate attention and medication
So here's the deal:
Ever since I was a little girl (I'm 13/f now), I would come up with these weird thoughts that if I did something that looked cool and I wanted to do it again, it wouldn't look cool if I did it again. I don't think that way anymore. But now I think even worse thoughts. As years grew by this thinking has become worse.
Sometimes when I'm up high on like a deck over a hotel looking at the view, I feel like I'm going to lose control and jump off. But then it got even worse. And this is what really scares me. I sleepwalk, so I feel like I'm going to harm someone in my sleep... and it really disturbs me. My brother annoys me a lot and sometimes the rest of my family does to, (because I'm on the computer all day could be why I'm so annoyed because it puts you in a bad mood. But I never used to be I don't think.) and I feel like once I'm older that I'm going to be one of those people with a mental illness that's going to kill somebody because of it.
Also, I think I have O.C.D. (Obsessive Compulsize Disorder) because when I'm on the neopets boards I'll keep looking up to make sure I'm on the right topic, or it's the right username etc. etc. I'm not sure if I'm just anxious or what!
I may also have A.D.D.
So those things may be connected.
I am also going through a minor depression that is becoming more mild, less and less ever since I talked about it with my mom... which is good but may have something to do with it.
Does any of what I've described seem like a disease/illness? Could you send me a link or something or explain what type of mental problem this could be? I'm scared to know the truth... but the later I find out, the worse.
THANK YOU for your time, and thank you for reading this because it was so long.
