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Hi solidadvice4teens, I am not looking to start a fight. I am not a person who likes arguing. However, after reading your reply to my post I will not keep my thoughts about it to myself. Again, I am not replying to insult you in any way. With that in mind, first of all, let me tell you that in the past I have suggested to my current psychiatrist that she wean me off meds. She said exactly what you said. Was she right? Yes, for the most part yes. Adding onto that, at the beginning of your response you stated that you agreed with adviceman49. Saying that you are both right whether I like it or not. You both are PARTIALLY correct I say partially because you both assumed I was feeling mentally stable while on meds. There is a reason why I suggested to my psychiatrist that she wean me off meds. All those years I had been on them I never felt they truly helped me as much as they sedated me and I have been on loads of different cocktails of drugs. They have all been the same. They all dumb me down tremendously. Psychiatrists have tried prescribing me a smaller dose, changing the medicine altogether to a more "effective/modern" drug but the fact that I was drugged out, to the point of not knowing what I was really doing, on antipsychotics has never changed. Abilify was the last drug I was on and I do admit it was the most helpful one. Not 100% or even 80% either.(As my psychiatrist says the pill is the miracle worker, it does 80% of the work and you only have to do 20% of it). I was on it for four years and it was never the miracle worker my psychiatrist said it would be. Now, you also suggested I visit an emergency room. Why would I go to such an extreme? Doing that would surely result in me getting a 51/50. I have a tight work schedule, if I am gone for even 1 day without notice I would surely lose my job and if I told my employer to let me off the hook because I was in a mental hospital he would surely not sympathize. Not to mention how intense it would become at home with my own family members giving me looks of disapproval and disappointment or even amusement because of my mental "weakness". Adding on to that I was hospitalized when I was about twenty one twice in the time span of one month. I must say the psychiatrist there was horrible, HORRIBLE and the employee's were awful as well. They either hated their jobs or loved their jobs because the patient's crazy behavior entertained them. This is no lie, I got a rash on my face while I was hospitalized because a negligent nurse didn't tell me how to properly use a prescription acne face wash. Yet another thing that sparks my curiosity about what the psychiatry and drug industries true intentions are. Why would they give me a prescription for my acne when that has nothing to do with my mental health. Also, because I was put on so many drugs that had potential increased appetite/weight gain listed as side effects I was eating A LOT. I gained twenty pounds in ONE WEEK. That is ridiculously fast weight gain. They had no problem with serving me three meals in one sitting. That was extremely hazardous to my health. The way everything played out while I was there steers me into believing they were milking my health insurance for all it was worth. In conclusion, adviceman49 suggested I keep a note on my fridge to remind myself that I feel okay because of medications. If you took your time to read this which, I know, ended up being really long you now know that was never the case and also never will be. If I have managed to stay even slightly productive it has mostly been because of my own will. As a teenager I honestly thought they were helping me but I realize now that some of the craziest and most destructive things I have done in my life were done when I was on meds. I completely agree that my mind isn't average. Possibly even inferior and defective but one thing I don't agree with is psychiatry's approach to people like me. My last words may be shocking and insulting to either one or both of you: I am back on my meds. After all these years of being on if go off them my mind becomes too much to handle. It is bad when I am on them but worse when I am not. I hate being overly sedated. Most people see right through it and view me as slow and mentally impaired and I have never in my right mind told anyone other than family and psychiatrist's about my diagnosis. If anything those drugs that you refer to as meds. have done nothing good but turn me into their slave. I know 100% deep down that if the first psychologist I saw didn't order me to take drugs and would have stuck to therapies and counseling my situation in the long run would have been much better. I am not stating everything that has to do with psychiatry is bad but MOST psychiatrist's are and the pharmaceutical industry most definitely is. (link)
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I am confused with this? I gave you advice?
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