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Hello! My name is Kaitlyn and I am a junior at goffstown high school.I am 16 years old. I pretty much like to have a good time with friends. and I like to laugh and pretend to sing. and i love amusing phone conversations.

I like to help people. Thats why i am here :). & I've been thru a lot so
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I just wanted to get this off my chest and I wanted to know if it seems as though I'm going through alot for my age...I'm only 13. Here goes.
I did drugs (cocaine, and pills), I was constantly getting in fights, I've been to court 11 times, arrested 3 times, longest was for 7 months, I've been taken away from my family for a little while because I needed "help", I had a boyfriend for three years,then we got into a fight because he was moving, as soon as he left my house after the arguement he got into a fight with these people, got hit in the back of the head and died before I could say sorry about the fight, I never told my parents, they still don't know about it, after that I started to get into cutting, then I tried to kill myself by doing the following : drown myself, hang myself, stab myself in the stomach, from which I now have a scar on my stomach, had to stay in the hospital for that for a couple of months, then got taken away from the family again, then after I got out I tried to shoot myself but accidently left it on that safety thingy and couldn't get the nerve to do it again, I tried to get an ex whom was the boyfriend at rhe time to shoot me and he almost did 'til his mom walked in, I got taken away from the family again after that and was gone for about a year, he got arrested, and then I got heavier into cutting to the point where I would cut everyday even without a reason. That's when I got into the drugs then I got expelled, got sent to rader, my family now does not mention me to friend's, they tell me to my face that I'm an embarrassment, they all tell eachother they love eachother in front of me but have not once said it to me. Then I became bulimic, then anorexic, then after I stopped I found out my mom was over dosing and was bulimic and still is to this day. My brother might die at any moment because he now has heart problems and he's supposed to take medicine to help him but he doesn't take it, my parents are trying to get me sent away to korea or tennessee so I'll be out of their lives but none of my relatives in either places want me with them, I have no clue what's going on in my life anymore, my family insult me constantly, my dad and brother both hit me and I have serious health problems ( I get headaches at a minimum of 4 times a day, I pass out at least once every other week, and i throw up at least twice a week and I have no idea why) and my parents won't take me to the doctor to find out why, they've told me they hate me, and I do not understand myself whatsoever, and my parents told me pretty soon they plan on kicing me out with out a place to go and I'll just have to find out how to take care of myslef, and are trying to get me sent to a "institute" for help. And I was forced into sex because the person threathened me and I don't know if that is considered rape. Am I going through too much for my age?

Sorry it was so long...

Wow. This certainly isn't something you'd usually read about for a 13-year-old. and it is definately so sad to hear this. We'll start off with the cocaine and pills and go in order. OK, everyone is bound to try things. But do you still do them? (im not trying to lecture you) but that is really not the thing to be doing. I think that you should ease up on that, especially because you have so much more life to live. you really don't need drugs to make yourself happy.Everyone gets into fights, sometimes you just need to know when to stop and control your feelings, prevent a lot of potential damage to happen.OK Cutting. This is a hard subject for me too talk about. I have been cutting for two years now. & i regret starting. Cutting is not a thing to start or you need help with that. It is such an awful thing to do, and I know I sound hypocritical. I think you need to get your life in order hun, there so much going on in your life and its really sad. I know its hard to quit some of these things, but you have too. If you want your family back, your education, your friends. YOu need to get it together.I am sorry about the death, death is always hard to deal with. You seem very mature and old ( if that sounds right) for your age. you had a boyfriend for 3 years thats a commitment at so young.Suicide, is really not the answer. I don't know if i can stress that enough. and I hope you won't try that again. Not with a gun, a rope or water. Don't kill yourself. Belimia nad anorexia are just ike cutting in a way. But this is nothing you should do, and i don't want to lecture you but it is so awful how you have all these problems and don't have any help going thru them. You need to try to get back into school. I think you should call child safety services. Because your dad or your brother should NOT hit you and you don't deserve that. No one should call you an embarrasment, thats so mean, and i can't believe that they don't say they love you. maybe thats all you need. Support from your family. am sorry to hear about your mother and your brothers heart problem. thats so sad.You need to get to the doctor somehow, you could be seriously ill. and that would be bad. IT IS RAPE.and you need someone to talk to. You are going thru way to much for a 13 year old, or anyone should go thru. Get HELP PLEASE! And talk to me whenever.

the fabulouskate
itsallkaitlyn@yahoo.com
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