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okay im going to get to the point, i lost my viriginty to a boy who is 2 years older then me, were werent going out but i like him alot, and im not one of those bout it type of girls either. But anyways i lost it to him and we kept talking and we also kept doin it. It sounds dumb but we never really talked in between, we talked sumtimes when we were together but that was it. Every time i asked him somthing about himself he would get defensive, i know he has had bad past realtionships and he doesnt trust girls but...i dont know, then i finnaly spoke up about the way he treats me like his hoe, and he said fuck it but then changed his mind and apologized. He is like an emotional roller coaster and i care for him alot, and i think he cares to by the things he does but he doesnt want to, you know what i mean? hes in a gang and considers that his family but recently they just ditched him in a situation where him and one of his homeboys were stuck to face like 100 guyz by themselves they just all out bailed on him, and he got mad and turned around and yelled at me "and you were not talking any more", i really care about him but i dont know how to reach him or w.e hes complicated, and i wanna stop the fucking, and become more of a friend, but i wanna be with him, i dunno im so confused. I know i should move on but i cant help it, im stuck to him hes my first. But i really want to understand him too, any advice, thankx ill rate you...xOx (link)
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If you feel that hes dragging you down with him then let him go for the better!but I kind of understand your pain, you dont want to leave him. I think you should just be friends and one night when ur together then just tell him you need to talk (instead of fucking) and you can just talk about just being friends! If he doesnt listen then hes not worth it!
Remember:He's in a gang and he can hurt you emotionally AND physically in many different ways! so watch out for your self, do what your heart tells you to!Hope I helped,love madison
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