Q: So I'm a sophomore and I have a year-long German class for my 3rd block. Back when school started, I had a dream about this junior in my class, whom my friend Taylor and I nicknamed "Limbo" because of it, and it was the most realistic and just...amazing dream of my life. I haven't looked at him the same way since, and my little crush on him has grown. We used to sit near each other and we'd talk and stuff and tease each other but the teacher moved us on opposite sides of the room! So now when I want to talk to him I have to go and sit at the teachers desk [he lets me get away with it since I'm his favorite] but he makes me g back to my seat eventually. ANYWAY, this is a sad case of what I believe to be unrequited "love," if you will. "Limbo" is not very popular, smart, very good a drawing, a smart-ass, socially awkward, a typical 'nerd,' you could say. He even plays WoW, and I certainly don't, but I do play other games. But GOD, he is so good-looking and handsome to me - and to everyone else I show him to apparently. He's straight-edge and I'm SO not [I told him I smoked and have done drugs and he said that smoking is the most disgusting habit and only retards do drugs.] He teases me a lot and I can often catch him looking at me in class. We have weird talks, I can't describe him, but we both have an appreciation for the arts. We both write. And he saw a drawing I did in Art and seemed pretty impressed. I just don't know what to do. I lust after him so bad, but strangely in the most innocent of ways - I just want to...hold him and kiss him and play video games with him and talk to him! I just want to date him so bad, but I fear I have no chance and he doesn't like me. We were kind of talking on Facebook and joking about being cheap whores or something equally stupid and he said "I'm not self-loathing, I love myself more than you." To which I responded, "Excuse me?"
"You heard me!"
And to sound hurt and confused I just said, "Nuh uh meanie ):" I didn't exactly know what he meant. Did he mean, "I love myself more than I love you," or, "I love myself more than you do?" But that's not the real question.
What do I DO? I dream of him everynight, I think about him all the time. I am going NUTS, and everyone who knows I have a crush on him wants me to get with him! They think we'd be cute together and that we're damn near perfect for each other. So, what in the hell do I do? Does he like me? Does he not like me? [I keep getting the feeling that he does and that he doesn't but ugh] Should I throw myself out there more?
Just what, guys? Help a girl out, I'm losing what's left of my mind D:
Sorry this was so long! And be gentle please :3
