Hey I'm Gin.
As you can tell from my email, I am seriously into music. I love it because it can be interpreted so many different ways. I am currently a student and pretty stressed out person.
So if you've came to ask me how to relax, you've graced your presence on the wrong profile.
The year 1984 in my username/email isn't the year I was born. I picked 1984 from the book with the same title by George Orwell. Honestly it's because I felt that music is the Big Brother of all things because it can pop up anywhere and in a sense be watching you.
If you haven't read 1984 you've no clue what I'm talking about. Go read it, it's a great book. If you like 1984, try Fahrenheit 451 by Ray Bradbury. Oops. Sorry, getting off my literary kick now.
That's about it.
E-mail: musicaddict1984@gmail.com
Gender: Female
Location: United States
Occupation: Student
Member Since: July 27, 2009
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Hey, my names Laura. I'm 16, And the love of my life is leaving for college next month... :/ Please don't say i'm young and that i will find someone else, i think this boy is my everything.
His name is Ryan, hes 18. We have been together since Late august. We went from september untill may, then we broke up. We continued to be "together" but without the label of being boyfriend/girlfriend. He took my virginity, so he was my first. he was here for everything, he was the first boyfriend that didn't abuse me, use me, or fuck me over.
I'm really, REALLY scared. I'm terrified. He is going to college about 6 hours away. I have never felt more upset in my life whenever i think about him leaving. He only can come home once every 10 weeks. I know I'm going to have to deal with what is coming at me, but I really dont want too. Just whenever I think about him leaving, I start crying. I don't want him to leave, he cant. I need him.
I really don't know what to do, I don't know how to tell him that I REALLY need him, I'm the kinda girl that likes to talk about more serious stuff online, I'm shy. I choke on my words upfront, and if I talk about this with him, I'll cry. I dont want to cry infront of him. But I want him to know that Im upset.. I've been playing it cool for the last couple months, so has he. We both know were really upset inside.
I have a therapist and we talk about him sometimes, whenever she brings up his name and mentions him leaving for school, I choke up, and start crying. I cant speak, words dont come out. I cry for the entire session. My life will be misriable without him. and everyone knows it..
The other night he was telling me (via text) that he can only come home once every 10 weeks and cant do anything about it. I was at the car dealer getting a car, I had to walk away from my family and cry in the bathroom, I couldn't hold it in. I was misriable from just hearing that news.
Ryan and I hang out every day, have sleepovers almost every other night, we really cant live without eachother. I've helped him through alot and he has picked me up when I thought everything was ending (being abused for 8 months in my last relationship, and giving up) he gave me hope.. he made me into the person that i always wished to be, a girl who is in love.
I know it was my mistake to begin liking him knowing he was leaving for school in a year. You cant beat love.
Can someone please help me? I feel like im dying, I dont know what to do without him... Please. (link)
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Honestly, if you two love each other enough to want to be together when he goes off to college, you've got a pretty good chance there already because most guys don't want to stay with their high school girlfriends. You both seem to have gone through a lot together and I believe you'll make it. If you're still feeling insecure about it, maybe you should talk to your boyfriend. I know he already said he couldn't change anything about visiting, but maybe it'll help to calm your nerves. Who knows, maybe he's feeling the same way too.
Best of luck.
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thank you so much i really appreciate your help =)
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