Q: This is so complicated and BAD!!!
Well i live in ______, i havnt dated anyone for 1 year 5 months and 16 days, yes i have been counting and i hate dating, i don't think i should date if it's not going to be worth it, and i love being single.
Until this guy who blew my mind away, very good looking *drools* now here is the problem that i believe i cannot solve but i need help to get over it.
Well it all started the day i had a fight with my sister's boyfriend or fiance now. Well my sister did something and i told my sister's boyfriend (S)' bestfriend (B) who is also my bestfriend (B is a guy and im a girl), So B was extremely drunk and YES accidently (i trust B badly) told S, so my sister was mad, and because i did something like that to her and she can loose her boyfriend because of it, i had to fix it, so i told S i was lying.
From that day he doesn't speak to me and on the phone he told me "Do not ever talk to me again, i'm like a stranger to you, you're nothing but a liar"
anyways B would go out with S sometimes and sometimes with me.
Everyone thinks B loves me and that i love him back, but my feelings towards him is only friendship (then later i discovered he had feelings for me)
Once it was me and B just hanging out and we were bored, so we were like why don't we fool everyone and say we are dating, so i was like okay why not?
Anyways we said only for 3 days and then thats it.
But the joke was taking too long, and in front of people we acted as if we're dating and shit.
Until S got mad at B because he goes out with me more than him, and they stopped talking.
So S now is mad at me and B. anyways
Here where the only guy who managed to blow my mind comes in the picture who we will call M
I met M with some friends who is also S's friends and B's also.
One day me and M we're chatting on MSN and he asked if im single so i said yeah and that i dont date.
That was after the joke in couple of days (i totally forget about the joke)
Then afterwards he asked me if im dating B and i couldnt say yes because i had feelings for him and also because the day before i told him i don't date much and shit.
But he promised me he won't tell anyone.
He calls me like EVERYDAY, In an hour he leaves me 22 missed calls, he is the sweetest EVER. He is everything i want in life, he is amazing. and yes i fell head over heels in love with him.
then he admited he likes me, and i said it back to him. (until now noone knows about me and M)
And like when we're hanging out with friends he would hold my hand under the table and etc...
Once day i was tipsy and extremely happy because of M and i told B everything. but not the part that i like him too.
Next day was M's birthday, me and B went out to eat sushi, and B convinced me that M doesnt like me and that S had a deal with M to play with my feelings and as if im cheating on B in front of everyone so everyone would say "HAHA ___ the girl you'd leave me for is cheating on you" (No one knows the dating thing is a joke )
I 50/50 believed him, and B was like really demanding that i would stay away from M and he made me feel like shit and i couldn't tell him i like M.
I had to avoid M, and not even look him in the eye (we were in a bar for his birthday)
So the day after M's birthday and that is today, M called me 100 of times and i didnt answer, and he texted me alot asking whats wrong and etc... i felt so guilty
Me and B decided we would take O's and C's advice, surprisingly O and C said "M actually likes you but S convinced him to get you and S thinks you guys are dating and if you don't actually care about M just call him and tell him you dont have feelings for and just stay away"
So i was like no and shit, and O was like "why? it's not like you like him and you don't want everyone to say shit about B "
so i was like okay, i was trying to prove i don't actually like M
so i called him in front of the three of them and put it loudspeaker "hey" "hey" "how r u?" good n u" "good" "ookay M listen" "yeah" "Um, forget about us, just stay away from me and let it go" "why ____" "just let go" "fine" "bye" "bye" then he closed
so B was like "Why didnt you tell him the reason is because you don't like him"
i was like "i don't know, what? you want me to call him back "
he was like "No send him a message"
so i texted M "the reason is i have no feelings for u just stay away"
he texted me back "im fine with it! but you could've said it in a better way! thanks"
I felt like the biggest asshole and i couldn't do anything about it. I'm even scared to trust M, i'm starting to hate my 2 years bestfriend B because sometimes i would feel he tell people off because he wants me for himself.
When i went back home, M's Status on facebook was "What happened is funny, this world is weird"
I know i have to get over him, because i can't let B down and I can't let people know about us because i already said i don't like him and a lot of other reasons.
I don't want to solve the problem i just want to live with it.
