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15/f
well to start off I've never had a real true bf but like 2 in elementry school but that was stupid stuff. anyways now i'm a freshmen in high school and never havin a boyfriend is really starting to suck. and therefore no bf has resulted in never being kissed. and all my friends except for one (my bff) has been kissed, made out with a guy or done other stuff. and i don't wanna go around having sex but i just wanna kiss a guy and its really startig to make me feel like crap when i see people kiss i just think ughhh i want a kiss. but i want my first to be spcail not some random guy at a party. but i'm starting to worry that when i do get a bf and he kisses me he'll be like wtf she can't kiss? and ughh i know i should be proud that i'm not going out makeing out i have morals but i just feel soo stupid and loser-ish for never being kissed or anything and i don't know what to do. (link)
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i know exactly how you feel i was in your boat once i am 15 and about four months ago i had my first kiss and i thought i would mess up my first time i was so nervious but ok let me tell you my story well ok well anyways i was so afraid to ever have a boyfriend i don't know why maybe because i thought that i wouldn't be good enough for they guy and plus i never had kissed anyone well i finally met a guy that i liked but i was stupid and when he asked me out i said no and then well i felt stupid so then the next weekend when he came over i wasn't there but my sister had told him that i would go out with his so well i came home and he was there and i was confused because at the time i didn't know if we were going out but i guess thats what he thought so i just played along and then i was like ok we are going out and well when he left that night i was so nervious that i just gave him a hug and then well then i sat on my bed and he was about to leave when he came up to me and well we madeout and i was like ok that was nothing but then the next day i was really nervious that he thought that i wasn't a good kisser so i was really nervious to kiss him again so i didn't really want to talk to him that much so then he left because i wouldn't talk to him but when he came back we started talking and one thing lead to the other and we ALMOST had sex but i wasn't ready so we just fooled around just making out and well that was like the best night i had ever had but then the next weekend he came down he tried to finger me and i said no so then he got pissed off and said he was going to leave then i got mad and i said it was time for him to leave we did makeout before he left but the next day i broke up with him because i knew he was just trying to use me i knew so yeah i know that this isn't what you wanted advice about but i did get my first kiss and for the first couple days i felt good about it so it was a bad choice to have my first kiss with but i did get it and now i don't feel loseris anymore
hope i helped
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yeah sorry that didn't really help me but thanks for giving me some advice
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