Q: In one year or so i might be moving with my parents to hawaii, i want to go cause its my home land and i want to move away from CA. I made great friends and i dont want to leave them. i realized i gained feelings to my bestfriend. i told her how i felt and she knows. she didnt respone to me about it. so i knew she didnt care for me in that way.
But i've been geting alot of body lang from her of liking me back. i ignor it but she dosnt want me to.(what i mean is, she flirts and always grab my attention, and when i walk away from it she gets mad or try her best to get my attention again)
the other reson i'm moving away is because of my feelings. I dont like it that i'm in luv with my best friend who is a women.
if she does want to be with me I'll say no. i might break her heart (i know).Because i'm afriad of what people might think.
But if she dosent have feelings to me i'll be happy. but i know i'll be jealous if she is with someone elus.
Am i doing the right thing? of running away from it all? i cant blame her its me i blame.
i can stay here in CA without my parents because i'm 20 yrs old women and i can live on my own. But i dont have a good paying job or a car. so i have no choice.
but still is it right for me to just leave and ignor whats going on between me and her?
i know i need to talk to her and i will soon,but what would you do if your in my shoes?
