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Not sure if what I am experiencing is mental or spiritual.
OK, I am not depressed. I have been treated for that in the past. So I know what depression is like, this is not it. I have a decent job, a great family and no real problems. I am an easygoing person who loves everyone.
Here's my story:
My family and I were waiting at a stoplight when suddenly out of no where I got this powerful urge to cry. I tried to fight it, I had nothing to cry about. As we sat there at the light waiting, an ambulance appeared in the distance. It was in front of us, heading our direction fast. The closer the ambulance got the stronger the uge to cry became. By the time the ambulance had reached us, I could not fight it anymore. I was quietly crying when my boyfriend noticed and became concerned. He asked me what was wrong and all I could say was "I don't know." It wasn't just the urge to cry. I had an overwelming feeling of deep sadness as the ambulance passed. I didn't feel like myself. I felt lost and extremely confused.
I think I may have even blacked out for a few seconds. Everything went blurry and my body felt limp.
Our light turned green after the ambulance passed.
As the distance between us and the ambulance grew the feeling faded. Before 10 minutes had passed I no longer had the urge to cry. I was able to sit up in my chair and see clearly. The emotional heavyness that hit me so fast, was gone just as fast. Afterwords I felt drained, exhausted and emotionally raped.
This does not happen every time an ambulance gets near me. Just sometimes. Never had one quite so strong before. When I am next to someone at the store or workplace, no where in particular. I feel as if I know how they are feeling. The stronger the emotion the more sure I am of the feeling. Sometimes, I think I can tell what an animal is feeling. Not what they are thinking, but how they are feeling emotionally.
Could this be real?
I cannot run everytime an ambulance passes me. Although the thought has crossed my mind. I hate the feeling of being emotionally raped.
Is this a question for the mental health section?
Thanks for letting me ramble. I am open to any advice you have.
Thanks,
Tammy-AKA hnstymtrs
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This sounds like a form of depression to me. I know that you've been treated for depression in the past, and that you don't think this feels the same, but depression has so many different symptoms that it can be tough to self diagnose. The best thing to do is talk to your doctor and see what she has to say.
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First, thank you for your advice. It is good advice to see my doctor about this.
Yes, It does sound like depression. That is why I said I have been treated for it. I have been treated for mild depression, all the way to being hospitalized because I was to depressed to leave my bed to eat.
I can tell you what depression is like, I know ALL about that subject. I had 5 years of my life eaten up by pills, support groups and doctors.
All depressing places trying to cheer up depressing people. HAHHA
I cannot explain the way it happens effectively enough I guess. These episodes do not happen all the time. They only happened when I have been in the close vacinity of someone else who is experiencing excessive emotional distress.
It is almost like I am not me anymore but the other person.
Maybe I am just mental! HAHAHA
ps I would like to give you a bit of advice. Play around in your column settings for while.
I am off to do more research on this sort of thing. :)
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