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Not sure if what I am experiencing is mental or spiritual.
OK, I am not depressed. I have been treated for that in the past. So I know what depression is like, this is not it. I have a decent job, a great family and no real problems. I am an easygoing person who loves everyone.
Here's my story:
My family and I were waiting at a stoplight when suddenly out of no where I got this powerful urge to cry. I tried to fight it, I had nothing to cry about. As we sat there at the light waiting, an ambulance appeared in the distance. It was in front of us, heading our direction fast. The closer the ambulance got the stronger the uge to cry became. By the time the ambulance had reached us, I could not fight it anymore. I was quietly crying when my boyfriend noticed and became concerned. He asked me what was wrong and all I could say was "I don't know." It wasn't just the urge to cry. I had an overwelming feeling of deep sadness as the ambulance passed. I didn't feel like myself. I felt lost and extremely confused.
I think I may have even blacked out for a few seconds. Everything went blurry and my body felt limp.
Our light turned green after the ambulance passed.
As the distance between us and the ambulance grew the feeling faded. Before 10 minutes had passed I no longer had the urge to cry. I was able to sit up in my chair and see clearly. The emotional heavyness that hit me so fast, was gone just as fast. Afterwords I felt drained, exhausted and emotionally raped.
This does not happen every time an ambulance gets near me. Just sometimes. Never had one quite so strong before. When I am next to someone at the store or workplace, no where in particular. I feel as if I know how they are feeling. The stronger the emotion the more sure I am of the feeling. Sometimes, I think I can tell what an animal is feeling. Not what they are thinking, but how they are feeling emotionally.
Could this be real?
I cannot run everytime an ambulance passes me. Although the thought has crossed my mind. I hate the feeling of being emotionally raped.
Is this a question for the mental health section?
Thanks for letting me ramble. I am open to any advice you have.
Thanks,
Tammy-AKA hnstymtrs
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I am bipolar so I have many different opinions on emotional circumstances. Honestly most people would tell you that this could be linked to depression.Considering the situation and how it occurs I am not so sure that it is. However some feelings that we have are linked to events that have happened in our lives . A form of classical condition you might say.Do you remember any events that you might have witnessed with ambulances? Or have you or a close member of your family ever been in any kind of incident that may have had great impact on you as a child or an adult? Do you also have dreams that possess the same fear for ambulances? All these are things that you should consider.There is an obvious link to negetive feelings associated with ambulances considering what they are used for . This alone could be the reason for your episodes. Especially if you have conditions such as , high anxiety, General anxiety disorder, Bipolar disorder,Panic disorder , or any somatic disorder for that matter.This is not to say that you do but, disorders such as this are extremely hard to accurately confirm.You may be having these feelings do to circumstances that are unexplainable.Who knows this could become a question of spirituality? You should however consider that in most cases it would not be a situation of psychic or spirtual abilities but a deeper reasoning of emotion. I would say that you should take some notes of these events and speak with a doctor about them. Good luck !
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Yes, yes, yes and yes. I have had people die in ambulances. I was a voluneteer EMT for many years. Never phased me. I love the ability that the ambulance can provide for someone in life threatening situations. Ususally when I see an ambulance I think to myself there geos another hero! I died when I was 9 months old. Most fo my life I have had some connection with the spiritual realm I guess you could call it. Maybe I have just been mental all these years.
I do not know that I have any mental disorders. In the past my depression was related to the sun. I grew up in a very sunny place. ALWAYS had a tan.
Then I moved to Seattle Washington. Rain, rain, rain. I began to have suicidal thoughts in less than a year. My military husband being gone all the time was no help to being in a new land with no sun. ARRGGG. In the beginning they tried meds to keep my crying down to less than 5 hours a day.
I eventually divorced and moved back to the SUN! I love it here. I have been back since 2000 and have only cried on occations like the one you read about.
Unexplainable, probably. Things like this have been a part of my life for a long time. Even before I ran on the fire department.
They were few and far between until about 3 months ago. I have not ran on an ambulance in 5 years. Most of them I have no reaction to. I have been getting deja-vu frequently these days. Almost twice a week for the last 3 months. That's not all. These deja-vu episodes are not just like I'd been there before, but like I knew exactly what was going to happen. It is like being a re-run. There are little differences though. Like once the deja-vu has begun, I can change it. Sometimes I do, dometimes I don't. I am not sure if this normal. I wonder how many other people this actually happens to. LUcide dreaming while I am awake! HEHEHEHE.
ANyway, thanks for responding. Love your advice.
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